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AbsentMindedHuman
One day, ill be free
- Apr 25, 2024
- 60
I hear this all the time and it pisses me off. I'm not sure why people want to decide for others how they are feeling in the first place, but just because someone is functioning, it doesn't mean they aren't wishing for death.
I myself present fairly Normal day to Day but I think this has been an aquired skill. On the inside, I so desperately want to be free from my pain. I have been emotionally castrated by the years of meds, decades of depression, and I have lost my soul, ever since I attempted 6 years ago. I haven't been able to cry in years and it's so exhausting when I am in a situation where I know how I am supposed to act and present but I have to fake it because those emotions are gone.
I am so broken and empty, this isn't living. I'm a puppet for someone else's life and it's not fair.
I myself present fairly Normal day to Day but I think this has been an aquired skill. On the inside, I so desperately want to be free from my pain. I have been emotionally castrated by the years of meds, decades of depression, and I have lost my soul, ever since I attempted 6 years ago. I haven't been able to cry in years and it's so exhausting when I am in a situation where I know how I am supposed to act and present but I have to fake it because those emotions are gone.
I am so broken and empty, this isn't living. I'm a puppet for someone else's life and it's not fair.