Memento Mori
shambling garbage
- Jan 24, 2019
- 573
Some ppl need to drive with closed eyes over some highway with 250km/h to feel alive, some ppl need to fuck until they collected all kinds of Hepatitis, some other ppl flee into psychoactive substances to sedate their feelings...
I love downers, smoking weed & popping benzos/opiates, drinking alcohol doesn't help out very often...
Taking a walk at a nice place also gives some energy just for the moment, maybe an 2-3h afterglow of it...
But I can't really find any skills to actually use to calm down and not just feel like a bull seeing a red blanket that tells him he has to leave earth and every second he wastes ignoring that fact will bring a pain that gets more and more intense while this planet continues rotating and generating reasons to feel rarely good and mostly lunatic
Planning out the last day of life in many different versions is also a good hobby lol
What do you do?
I love downers, smoking weed & popping benzos/opiates, drinking alcohol doesn't help out very often...
Taking a walk at a nice place also gives some energy just for the moment, maybe an 2-3h afterglow of it...
But I can't really find any skills to actually use to calm down and not just feel like a bull seeing a red blanket that tells him he has to leave earth and every second he wastes ignoring that fact will bring a pain that gets more and more intense while this planet continues rotating and generating reasons to feel rarely good and mostly lunatic
Planning out the last day of life in many different versions is also a good hobby lol
What do you do?