GettingOut
I'm not worth any tears
- Aug 16, 2022
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It is time for me to make final preparations, and I'd appreciate any feedback. I'm planning to visit a beautiful, remote part of nature, close to where I first attempted suicide about 5 years ago. It would take a day or two to find me after they notice that I'm missing.
Due to chronic pain, muscle tremors and severe depression, I take painkillers, propanol and diazepam every day.
I also have an intrathecal baclofen pump that delivers baclofen (muscle relaxant) directly into my spinal fluid. A baclofen overdose will result in CNS and respiratory depression. A handheld device allows me to program the pump to deliver an overdose over 60 mins. This is just a backup in case the SN fails for one reason or the other.
If it makes any difference, it is winter here, so I'll be unconscious for a few hours in the cold. The soonest they'll find me would probably be 12 hours after I've taken the SN.
Due to chronic pain, muscle tremors and severe depression, I take painkillers, propanol and diazepam every day.
I also have an intrathecal baclofen pump that delivers baclofen (muscle relaxant) directly into my spinal fluid. A baclofen overdose will result in CNS and respiratory depression. A handheld device allows me to program the pump to deliver an overdose over 60 mins. This is just a backup in case the SN fails for one reason or the other.
If it makes any difference, it is winter here, so I'll be unconscious for a few hours in the cold. The soonest they'll find me would probably be 12 hours after I've taken the SN.
| 24 hour fasting (most difficult part for me) | |
| 8 hour minimal water | |
| 10:00 | 1 x 10mg Metoclopramide |
| 17:00 | 1 x 10mg Metoclopramide |
| 22:00 | No drinking water (2 hours before SN) |
| 23:00 | 3 x 5mg Diazepam |
| 23:00 | 10 x 10mg Propranolol |
| 23:20 | 3 x 10mg Metclopramide |
| 00:00 | Program the Baclofen overdose over the next hour |
| 00:00 | 25g SN in 50ml of water (take the 2nd cup if needed) |
