In my opinion, I think showing the death itself is a bit … people already call you selfish for suicide and I'd rather not be ostracised after death too even if I can't see it. It's really, really cruel how people think nowadays. I always see it.
Anyways, a lot of livestreams, for jumping in particular, show the individual taking the leap but not the aftermath. Such things, what are everyone's thoughts about it? I think that it's more sad than anything because it's a last attempt to leave a mark of yourself in the world. Attention seeking, sure, although I wouldn't even consider that a negative thing AT ALL because I know that I personally would hope that people at least 'knew I existed' before I died.
Little personal story
Last year, actually just two days ago last year, I attempted to CTB via drowning in a river and failed. Got hospitalized, all that, when I got home, I noticed a local news article was posted about me, vaguely.
The majority of the comments were just mocking me, saying things along the lines of how I'd walk looking like a monster (gif included), grow a third nipple, making jokes and guessing whether I was a runaway 'Mexican?' I felt miserable, I just wanted to die all over again. Even to this today, while I know to them it was just a small joke they made on the whim and probably forgot about, I still feel completely humiliated over my failed attempt hence why I'm so hesitant in the case of again, messing up just for a similar case to happen.
That's why, as someone who thought as I was being discharged to go home how I'd maybe make a turn around in life just to see that…! (And I hadn't even live-streamed anything nor posted a single message hinting to my attempt.) Those who livestream themselves lest it's on TikTok or the like and they have a full screen 1080p of their skull blown; I think that's just a bit too much… don't deserve to be hated more so than pitied.
ok thanks for coming to my tedtalk
Anyways, a lot of livestreams, for jumping in particular, show the individual taking the leap but not the aftermath. Such things, what are everyone's thoughts about it? I think that it's more sad than anything because it's a last attempt to leave a mark of yourself in the world. Attention seeking, sure, although I wouldn't even consider that a negative thing AT ALL because I know that I personally would hope that people at least 'knew I existed' before I died.
Little personal story
Last year, actually just two days ago last year, I attempted to CTB via drowning in a river and failed. Got hospitalized, all that, when I got home, I noticed a local news article was posted about me, vaguely.
The majority of the comments were just mocking me, saying things along the lines of how I'd walk looking like a monster (gif included), grow a third nipple, making jokes and guessing whether I was a runaway 'Mexican?' I felt miserable, I just wanted to die all over again. Even to this today, while I know to them it was just a small joke they made on the whim and probably forgot about, I still feel completely humiliated over my failed attempt hence why I'm so hesitant in the case of again, messing up just for a similar case to happen.
That's why, as someone who thought as I was being discharged to go home how I'd maybe make a turn around in life just to see that…! (And I hadn't even live-streamed anything nor posted a single message hinting to my attempt.) Those who livestream themselves lest it's on TikTok or the like and they have a full screen 1080p of their skull blown; I think that's just a bit too much… don't deserve to be hated more so than pitied.
ok thanks for coming to my tedtalk
