For me it'd just be the wish for true permanent peace from this torturous, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I hope and wish for is the peace of non-existence where I'm permanently unconscious with this existence all gone and forgotten, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, all I want is to be at peace and free from all suffering and I just find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed, all I want is to be gone from it all, I just want to never suffer again.