StevieNixs
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- Jul 22, 2021
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I stopped being social a number of years ago, and have grown used to and prefer being alone. I have ZERO desire to go to a coffee shop, bar, restaurant, cinema, with anyone. I have ZERO desire for anyone to come to my house for a "cup of tea or coffee". I really want to be left alone - but throughout the time that I felt this way, members of my family have tried to make me feel as if I am abnormal. As if my desire not to want to be around people is odd, a cause for concern, and, contributing towards my negative state of mind. I tried to explain that I find people for the most part, dangerous and deleterious to my mental health and well being. Evidently, they do not understand.
But about two years ago, I thought I would give it a shot. Try and engage in this whole friendship, or at least acquaintance phenomenon. Of course, I was proven right. My initial assertions that people are problematic were correct.
1) I met a woman in a supermarket about two years ago. We got chatting and swapped numbers. I offered to take her to the supermarket again a few days later as she could not drive, she had suffered a stroke at a relatively young age. So I took her to the supermarket at about 1pm. We sat in the restaurant upstairs whilst SHE waited for the supermarket staff to reduce the food prices. 4pm came, 5pm, 6pm. The staff reduced the food she wanted by 50%. No she wanted it reduced more, so insisted on waiting for longer. I explained that I needed to go home, she insisted I needed to stay or she would have no means of getting home. 7pm came, 8pm, 9pm. By this stage I was becoming upset. Eight hours in a damned supermarket and she was completely selfish in her determination to make me wait until the shop closed and she could get her produce for 5 cents/pence/euros whatever. The supermarket did not reduce the prices any further.. I took her home, refused to answer any more calls from her and then blocked her number so she could not phone me again.
2) Went to another store about eight months later. A woman in a car park - much older than me - asked me if I could work out what was wrong with her car - the battery light was on, so I said - "I have no idea, maybe you need a new battery". She asked if I knew of a garage. I did. I drove there and she followed me in her car. When we go there, she decided she did not like the price of the new battery and would instead "phone someone she already knew who worked for a car battery manufacturer". Fair enough. I didn't think anything of it. We got talking. She seemed nice. Told me she had eight kids. Told me she had moved about an hour away from them after her husband died. That confused me - at her age, why move away from your only support system? I felt sorry for her. We swapped mobile numbers. About a week later, she asked me to drive her to near to where her children lived to take her to a department store to query some store gift voucher she had been. I asked her why she could not call the store. Then she said she wanted me to take her to the hospital for some scan she needed. She had a car of her own - now working - and eight children but she kept phoning me up almost every day asking me to do something for her... all of this whilst I was feeling like shit. She would also phone me to talk for an nour about her back and her daughter's issue with her throat. It was a completely one way conversation. I blocked her number as well.
There are other instances. People say that it safer to befriend people offline, but my experiences online have been just as negative and bizarre. If people want friends - good for them. I'm happy for them. But I am not going to allow people into my life again. I want to be alone and I see nothing wrong with this. People to me are quite honestly, walking units of destruction.
But about two years ago, I thought I would give it a shot. Try and engage in this whole friendship, or at least acquaintance phenomenon. Of course, I was proven right. My initial assertions that people are problematic were correct.
1) I met a woman in a supermarket about two years ago. We got chatting and swapped numbers. I offered to take her to the supermarket again a few days later as she could not drive, she had suffered a stroke at a relatively young age. So I took her to the supermarket at about 1pm. We sat in the restaurant upstairs whilst SHE waited for the supermarket staff to reduce the food prices. 4pm came, 5pm, 6pm. The staff reduced the food she wanted by 50%. No she wanted it reduced more, so insisted on waiting for longer. I explained that I needed to go home, she insisted I needed to stay or she would have no means of getting home. 7pm came, 8pm, 9pm. By this stage I was becoming upset. Eight hours in a damned supermarket and she was completely selfish in her determination to make me wait until the shop closed and she could get her produce for 5 cents/pence/euros whatever. The supermarket did not reduce the prices any further.. I took her home, refused to answer any more calls from her and then blocked her number so she could not phone me again.
2) Went to another store about eight months later. A woman in a car park - much older than me - asked me if I could work out what was wrong with her car - the battery light was on, so I said - "I have no idea, maybe you need a new battery". She asked if I knew of a garage. I did. I drove there and she followed me in her car. When we go there, she decided she did not like the price of the new battery and would instead "phone someone she already knew who worked for a car battery manufacturer". Fair enough. I didn't think anything of it. We got talking. She seemed nice. Told me she had eight kids. Told me she had moved about an hour away from them after her husband died. That confused me - at her age, why move away from your only support system? I felt sorry for her. We swapped mobile numbers. About a week later, she asked me to drive her to near to where her children lived to take her to a department store to query some store gift voucher she had been. I asked her why she could not call the store. Then she said she wanted me to take her to the hospital for some scan she needed. She had a car of her own - now working - and eight children but she kept phoning me up almost every day asking me to do something for her... all of this whilst I was feeling like shit. She would also phone me to talk for an nour about her back and her daughter's issue with her throat. It was a completely one way conversation. I blocked her number as well.
There are other instances. People say that it safer to befriend people offline, but my experiences online have been just as negative and bizarre. If people want friends - good for them. I'm happy for them. But I am not going to allow people into my life again. I want to be alone and I see nothing wrong with this. People to me are quite honestly, walking units of destruction.
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