I wonder the same thing. Sometimes I feel I would genuinely die by suicide one day. Other days I am not sure. I don't think anyone is ever really ready for death. I think, no matter the circumstances, we have an innate desire to live
Oh my apologies. I jumped to conclusions.
its cool. im not really the best at going into details about things initially
I see. Thats ok. I am at fault too for not reading carefully and imposing my own bias about suicide.
I know it's not the same, though in my case I am thinking about job hunting again before school starts. I feel so unsure and not ready. Like I know mistakes are inevitable but I always feel like I'll just give up because I will feel like an eternal failure.
may i ask what kind of job you are looking for compared to the job you want?
Tbh I am not sure lol. Just recently I sent an application to volunteer at at a cate cafe I used to help out at before COVID. In terms of an actual job, I really don't know what I want. Besides a few volunteering stuff I've done over the years, I don't have much experience so I feel I wouldn't get anywhere
basically. my first sexual experiences were for attention. i would cheat on all my bfs. then i got together with this guy and that pretty much only happened because i was ****** and then we got married because i kept going back and forth on it because of my disorders until i finally said fuck it
yeah experience is a problem. i find for most jobs you need X amount of experience and im looking at it going "how am i suppose to get the experience if i cant get the job?"
have you tried reminding yourself that its ok mistakes happen. it can take a bit before it sets in though
im not sure. my emotions and my disorders are all fucked up
