You wasted years being depressed and isolated and have no-one to spend NYE with

[BeautifulMosaics]

Does anyone else every think about how unfair life is? My sister is a terrible human being, she succeeded in isolating me from my mother and her during xmas but she's a normal, functioning human being. She has this guy who she uses to drive her back to her uni city (and take her out when she's bored) and she's gonna spend the new year with her flat mates probably living it up. I am going to a house gathering on the 30th but have no one to go out with NYE.

I suppose if I was as selfish as most people I could always find some guy who is desperate for me and use him.

I wasted so many years being depressed and not interacting with the world and doing what normal people do - now it is glaring at me in the face everything I don't have. That's not to say I can't make friends and improve...

It's just crazy how you can be a terrible human being and as long as you function and put on a mask to the world and only release your bile to your black-sheep family members - you'll have all the rewards of that normal life. She's caused so much unhappiness for me and she just gets to swan around unaffected.

I'm 25 and feel so old.

 

[byebyered]

You preaching with this post. Sadly , I think about how unfair life is pretty often. yeah , it definitely sucks seeing somebody who's a TERRIBLE person in the inside get fucking everythingggg they could want & more. Kinda like the girls who bullied me in middle & Highschool are living their best life & hear I am dealing with the consequences of their actions. Life is unfair , good shit happens to bad people , bad shit happens to good people . My life would be fucking amazing if it was based on my character & how I've treated others throughout my life.