You ever feel like a pathetic human?

[CatLove56]

I'm sure I've talked about this at some point but a previous post I talked about hanging myself in a hotel but before that you know giving myself a little vacation just before doing it. Out of town being a tourist you know. But yeah I feel pathetic all the time just because basic shit that a grown man should be able to do I just have a hard time because of anxiety and depression and intrusive thoughts like suicide. 28 and even if family or friends don't give me a hard time, I'll just do it for them.

Hanging by rope seems like the cleanest way to go, it's not like it's hard to get rope and as long as you can find a reasonable height like a door I guess or if it comes down to it a tree. I feel like I told jerk to do that to any hotel employees that find me but you know I'd just like to do it somewhere reasonably nice. Actually have a place in mind.

I feel bad about family of course but I mean at some points you have to put yourself first right? Tired of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yeah, all the time. Pathetic is my middle name after all.


I could go on and on about my inability to perform basic tasks, how I constantly fail at everything I do no matter how much effort I put into it, all the times in which I have fucked people over starting from child up to into adulthood, my stupidity, my shitty personality, my lack of good looks, and so on and so forth. I am still amazed that my family has not bothered just giving up on me and abandoning me at this point.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I probably get more sick of people trying to make me feel like a pathetic human. Especially parents I suppose. Especially when I feel like they expect more of me than they do or did themselves. Like- if you expect me to face up to (suspected) narcissists and shitty situations- then you ought to have lead by example. I've been understanding when you've been weak and taken the easy way out- why won't you do the same? Probably because they know in the long run, it doesn't work.

Asides from that though, it just aggravates me now. As in- I don't even want to be alive! Anything beyond breathing is kind of a favour to you! I'm not really carrying on for me anymore.

I've just become so horribly resentful and bitter. It's actually really horrible to experience. I'm getting worried that it's going to show at some point too.

 

[F@#$]

I always feel like a pathetic person.

 

[Toodles!]

Yes. Mostly because I made my own problems happen. I had the most perfect life.

 

[avalonisburning]

I've always aspired to be a comedian, like my father. Unfortunately, that dream was never meant to be. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't come up with a greater joke than his only son.

 

[another_creature]

Ever? More like, always.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I'm not the one who is pathetic. What is pathetic is society and the system

 

[untothedepths]

I don't simply feel. I am.

 

[ham and potatoes]

Feel like it? I am

 

[lovedread]

Im pathetic lol

 

[BrokeN__lil’__girl]

Every single day

 

[sserafim]

No, I'm not the one who is pathetic. What is pathetic is society and the system

Same. I don't feel pathetic, nor am I pathetic. Instead, society, the system and this world are pathetic. I deserve a better world and reality. I feel sad and mad that this is the world that I have to live in and that it's like this. Honestly, it saddens me to see the state of humanity. Man is born free but exists in chains. Work is modern day slavery and people have to work away their lives to survive. They need to become slaves to the system for survival purposes. I believe that I deserve better than a fate of wageslavery. Why should I have to submit to wageslavery as well?