EmbraceOfTheVoid
Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
- Mar 29, 2020
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This pro-life society really makes you struggle all the way to the end and makes suicide itself an ordeal when it shouldn't be.
I have to spend my last moments writing my thoughts down in a suicide note instead of being able to say those things out loud and then I have to meticuously plan to mail this stuff at a specific date/time. Constantly having to pretend, looking over my shoulder, hiding things, burning things or throwing them away, wiping my hard drives, using five different emails, preparing and arranging important documents, and all of this is done for people I dislike or hate with the exception of one person.
I mean I guess I could've just offed myself without any of this hassle but I refuse to die without even getting a word in to this fucked up society that will probably label my death as a "mental illness" anyways.
I have to spend my last moments writing my thoughts down in a suicide note instead of being able to say those things out loud and then I have to meticuously plan to mail this stuff at a specific date/time. Constantly having to pretend, looking over my shoulder, hiding things, burning things or throwing them away, wiping my hard drives, using five different emails, preparing and arranging important documents, and all of this is done for people I dislike or hate with the exception of one person.
I mean I guess I could've just offed myself without any of this hassle but I refuse to die without even getting a word in to this fucked up society that will probably label my death as a "mental illness" anyways.
In the letter he left for the coroner he had explained his reasoning (for suicide): that life is a gift bestowed without anyone asking for it; that the thinking person has a philosophical duty to examine both the nature of life and the conditions it comes with; and that if this person decides to renounce the gift no one asks for, it is the moral and human duty to act on the consequences of that decision. ... Alex showed me a clipping from the Cambridge Evening News. 'Tragic Death of "Promising" Young Man.' ... The verdict of the coroner's inquest had been that Adrian Flinn (22) had killed himself 'while the balance of his mind was disturbed.' ... The law, and society, and religion all said it was impossible to be sane, healthy, and kill yourself. Perhaps those authorities feared that the suicide's reasoning might impugn the nature and value of life as organised by the state which paid the coroner?" -Julian Barnes, The Sense of an Ending