Method Yew berries and/or hemlock

[mashirochoco]

Hello!
I'm not new to SS, suicidal ideation, or anything related to depression/self harm for that matter. Recently, my quality of life has deteriorated more than it ever has in my entire life, so I'm considering CTB again. I have already looked at quite a few threads regarding natural poisons: yew, hemlock, apple/cherry seeds and such. Someone ate yew berries and just went to the hospital after experiencing very much discomfort I live in the rainy PNW, and I don't have access to any sort of over the counter medicines or methods that would require much money. I have social anxiety and don't interact with the outside world much besides dragging myself to school, or have much money to spend. I was wondering about the likelihood of death if I ingested both yew and water hemlock.

I would like to go to a park or any large natural area and collect anywhere from about 30-100 yew berries along with the seeds. The yew berries I will crush and perhaps create jam, or mix it into teas along with some other beverages. The same will go for the seeds. I want to CTB in a desirable, enjoyable method, eating sweets and having yummy beverages like I always do. As if the yew berries weren't enough, I plan to spend time searching local bogs, ponds, and other small bodies of water for water hemlock. Water hemlock is regarded as one of the most poisonous, if not the most, plant in the USA, and you don't have to ingest very much of it (.2~.8lbs) for it to be fatal. It also is described to have a sweet, mild taste similar to parsnips, celery, or wild carrots.

I'm thinking I can basically drink and eat a whole bunch of yew berries and seeds mixed with other fruits along with a little bit of water hemlock perhaps in a salad or something, take a lot of Tylenol, and die (somewhat) peacefully, as no methods of CTB can truly be pain-free. I know it seems like a long shot, and I sound stupid for posting something like this, but I want to know if it could truly be successful. If not, what are some other natural poisons that could be used? I am also aware I might have to wait until spring to harvest these, and i'm looking for something quick, soon.

Thank you

 

[ipmanwc0]

Wouldn't say it's the most reliable method but if you take enough of them and the right part and make sure they're at the point in their growth where they produce the toxin don't see why it can't work

 

[eggsausagerice]

yew doesn't work. please don't attempt with it or you'll go to the hospital. there's only been failed yew attempts on the forum from people that have attempted to make tea out of it. there have been deaths from yew, but it's not reliable and is generally unsafe. it isn't peaceful either.

Yew attempt

I earlier posted a thread where I attempted ingesting tea made on yew(taxus baccata) I did so twice. Im not sure what if anything happened more than stomach issues because I went to the hospital each time (because I wanted to feel safe). I had the thread deleted because I felt self-conscious...

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I survived :(

I drank the tea, cut myself then sadly backed out and called the ambulance. I regret that so much. In the hospital the staff was nice but they had to clean my stomach it was insanely uncomfortable. After that 2 weeks in the psych ward and only now do I have my phone back. The only symptoms I had...

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Why aren't people interested in yew tree seeds?

Why aren't people interested in yew tree seeds? As far as I know, chewing 30 seeds can cause a heart attack. Is the poison ineffective? Is it taking a long time? Are the side effects of the poison severe? I want to know why, please give me an answer if you know

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