yesterday night breathing crisis

[itsbeenawhile]

As some people know I like to train to die abusing cigarettes, Xanax, haloperidol, quietiapine,alcohol
Then yesterday night I can't breathe and my mom saved me with a deltacortene.
I was always pro ctb, now I'm reflecting about...

 

[anguila_anguila]

I'm a little confused by what you are saying, but it sounds to me like you tried to CTB, was rescued, and now are reconsidering doing it?
If that is the case, then there is no shame in changing your mind. For some, the idea of suicide can seem like a blissful escape, but when it comes to the actual act, they realise that it isn't what they really want, and they just want/need help to change things in their life.

Is there anyone close to you who you can have a serious discussion with about how you are feeling and what led to this? Would seeking out a professional help?
(If I misunderstood your post, then just ignore this..)

 

[itsbeenawhile]

I'm a little confused by what you are saying, but it sounds to me like you tried to CTB, was rescued, and now are reconsidering doing it?
If that is the case, then there is no shame in changing your mind. For some, the idea of suicide can seem like a blissful escape, but when it comes to the actual act, they realise that it isn't what they really want, and they just want/need help to change things in their life.

Is there anyone close to you who you can have a serious discussion with about how you are feeling and what led to this? Would seeking out a professional help?
(If I misunderstood your post, then just ignore this..)

i have also professional help

 

[anguila_anguila]

i have also professional help

Maybe change the therapist? I went through a couple before I found someone who I felt really helped and tried to understand me.
Or you could try and connect with people on here.

 

[itsbeenawhile]

Maybe change the therapist? I went through a couple before I found someone who I felt really helped and tried to understand me.
Or you could try and connect with people on here.

i ve tried to connect but 0 results...

 

[anguila_anguila]

It might take a little while though - it says you recently joined (like me), so maybe you just need a little more time to truly connect with people on here.
However, it does seem that people are willing to listen, if you want to vent.

 

[itsbeenawhile]

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