dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
- 1,298
Seems kind of odd. Im a pretty easy going guy.
And today with Ritalin, its even clearer. But I've always been. Maybe people dont like much what I got to say LOL
I'm curious, you reading this post, do you make conversations in SS with other people? I mean, more than a reply to a post, like a chat, and like a real conversation, dialogue. Not a discussion, but an exchange of words, thoughts, ideas, etc... chat?
It must be because for 40 years I've been a little retracted.
And the , 5, 6 times I've started with Ritalin it always gave me hope.
But couple weeks and I've snorted a box in a weekend and almost got into trouble at the pharmacies.
I do remember that long lasting, slow release methilphenidate was different and couldn't /shouldnt be cleaned and snorted, sure I'd clean the damm pills, which is like 80%excipient or just 20% is the crystal methylphenidate
however, I don't want to snort methylphdte , I rather take the slow release capsule and gosh, what a different day.
plus the slow release capsule has no spikes like the regular Ritalin pill or methylphenidate sniff
so I might make it this time.
Today I executed my job far way better than other days, more conversation, well at least some.
and ease and calm.
I've always enjoy placebo effect on couple of pills, but this is not just a pill, its a slow release estimulant.
It even helped me with my jogging/running, went out twice today, so that must add up to 9km, I did for the first time some sprinting for 10seconds at almost top speed, I'm fast as the world fastest marathoneer, but he can hold that speed for 42km, I can for 10seconds.
there's a gym just 1km from my house, I can join and do a quick challenge, 30minute fast workout, that be great.
And I'm working on something else besides my job, an app. And Today I finally have the first mobile app with no content app on my phone, with nothing, except an almost ready system I've built 10 years ago, and a notification feature going on
got some ideas on that working that.
What else? I want to focus on my girl, not on my ex, but on my queen
!thats most important! Make it work! Give it 100% with her.
Keep reading my Kindle books
Work, man I have to learn some shit for work, im like 65% on the automation training course.
the psychiatrist is so much money, I will only consult 3 more times and just get the pharmacist to give them to me monthly, done it before and possible here, its even like legal, but kinda a trick.
And guess what? All of this is to end up with some webApp and making some videos, to promote an idea I've had 12 years ago while on K, those were kinda suicidal days
And today with Ritalin, its even clearer. But I've always been. Maybe people dont like much what I got to say LOL
I'm curious, you reading this post, do you make conversations in SS with other people? I mean, more than a reply to a post, like a chat, and like a real conversation, dialogue. Not a discussion, but an exchange of words, thoughts, ideas, etc... chat?
It must be because for 40 years I've been a little retracted.
And the , 5, 6 times I've started with Ritalin it always gave me hope.
But couple weeks and I've snorted a box in a weekend and almost got into trouble at the pharmacies.
I do remember that long lasting, slow release methilphenidate was different and couldn't /shouldnt be cleaned and snorted, sure I'd clean the damm pills, which is like 80%excipient or just 20% is the crystal methylphenidate
however, I don't want to snort methylphdte , I rather take the slow release capsule and gosh, what a different day.
plus the slow release capsule has no spikes like the regular Ritalin pill or methylphenidate sniff
so I might make it this time.
Today I executed my job far way better than other days, more conversation, well at least some.
and ease and calm.
I've always enjoy placebo effect on couple of pills, but this is not just a pill, its a slow release estimulant.
It even helped me with my jogging/running, went out twice today, so that must add up to 9km, I did for the first time some sprinting for 10seconds at almost top speed, I'm fast as the world fastest marathoneer, but he can hold that speed for 42km, I can for 10seconds.
there's a gym just 1km from my house, I can join and do a quick challenge, 30minute fast workout, that be great.
And I'm working on something else besides my job, an app. And Today I finally have the first mobile app with no content app on my phone, with nothing, except an almost ready system I've built 10 years ago, and a notification feature going on
got some ideas on that working that.
What else? I want to focus on my girl, not on my ex, but on my queen
!thats most important! Make it work! Give it 100% with her.
Keep reading my Kindle books
Work, man I have to learn some shit for work, im like 65% on the automation training course.
the psychiatrist is so much money, I will only consult 3 more times and just get the pharmacist to give them to me monthly, done it before and possible here, its even like legal, but kinda a trick.
And guess what? All of this is to end up with some webApp and making some videos, to promote an idea I've had 12 years ago while on K, those were kinda suicidal days
