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ultrasharpy123456
Wizard
- Aug 18, 2022
- 634
I followed the troonatnoor pdf thing. I made the tourniquet like 2 months ago. Never used it. But I'm sure it works I've just never tested it out. What gives me assurance is that other people have passed out with the tourniquet method and I think why ppl fail with it is because they don't angle it.
So yeah anyways here I am. I should kill myself soon but I'm following law of assumption for no reason instead of getting a job and I'm doing the void state thinking I can manifest a life for me instantly. Will it work? I dunno. I've been to the void before it was pitch black I just never affirmed for my desires.
Do I want to get better? Well I am better and I guess I don't mind getting a job but it's just the type of person I am is better for suicide. I'm hard to get along with and I make ppl angry at me. Idk. I just wanna kinda like unexist and I do have the method for that and I probably WAS gonna do it today but you know I have wait for warm days, wait til everyone is gone from the house, etc.
So how's my health? Well Most of my body has been examined except for my brain and everyone thinks I'm fine. I feel a little head pain from time to time and I know all this came from my failed attempt at suicide with the carotid method. I choose the carotid method because I don't have money for a gun or smth. Idk I think I'm just ready to not exist.
I now see a psychiatrist. Cool. Thing is what is that gonna do for me? They know I can't talk about suicide because if I do the psychologst is gonna prob. put me on some drugs or send me to a psych ward. Also it's pointless because like I'm kinda ready to just die.
I dunno. If the void state is real I should just try getting there and let it take care of me.
So yeah anyways here I am. I should kill myself soon but I'm following law of assumption for no reason instead of getting a job and I'm doing the void state thinking I can manifest a life for me instantly. Will it work? I dunno. I've been to the void before it was pitch black I just never affirmed for my desires.
Do I want to get better? Well I am better and I guess I don't mind getting a job but it's just the type of person I am is better for suicide. I'm hard to get along with and I make ppl angry at me. Idk. I just wanna kinda like unexist and I do have the method for that and I probably WAS gonna do it today but you know I have wait for warm days, wait til everyone is gone from the house, etc.
So how's my health? Well Most of my body has been examined except for my brain and everyone thinks I'm fine. I feel a little head pain from time to time and I know all this came from my failed attempt at suicide with the carotid method. I choose the carotid method because I don't have money for a gun or smth. Idk I think I'm just ready to not exist.
I now see a psychiatrist. Cool. Thing is what is that gonna do for me? They know I can't talk about suicide because if I do the psychologst is gonna prob. put me on some drugs or send me to a psych ward. Also it's pointless because like I'm kinda ready to just die.
I dunno. If the void state is real I should just try getting there and let it take care of me.