Yall real shit, do I have a choice??

[shekindabadtho…]

At this point I'm going to do it. I'm worthless in the sense that I have nothing important to bring any living human being. No intelligence no good personality no bad personality no talent no attractiveness or kindness just hack shit and stupidity. but that's not the thing that makes me feel like living isn't an option. It's the fact that I also have to live with the fact that I had the chance to live a better life and the realization I wil never get it. If I found a reason to keep going, one that wouldn't go anywhere I would stay. But I don't. Where do I find one?

 

[dolemitedrums]

You seem like you have a bit of a hunger for a reason to continue. That does separate you in an optimistic way from some of the rest of us. I don't know if you have as few virtues as you proclaim...and I'm not sure what the reason to stay you will find will be...but I am hopeful for you. I think you may have good things to bring to others.

 

[shekindabadtho…]

You seem like you have a bit of a hunger for a reason to continue. That does separate you in an optimistic way from some of the rest of us. I don't know if you have as few virtues as you proclaim...and I'm not sure what the reason to stay you will find will be...but I am hopeful for you. I think you may have good things to bring to others.

I don't think I do, I've been dragging along just because I haven't got a good method. I don't even think I've really looked for one and anyway if I was really itching to die I probably would be gone by now. The fact that it's death or get through life kinda sucks, cause I have no reason to do option 1 or 2. I'm not bad or good really. Just here and in the way. I know if I'd actually been trying in life or if there wasn't anything wrong with me or if I was dealt a better hand in life then it wouldn't be that way which does fuck me up but now that I'm thinking about it it has given me hope that if something, anything about me or my situation changes I might be happy, I might actually have a reason to live instead of just living because I'm fruitlessly trying to find a reason to keep living

 

[pomcustard]

I'm sorry things have gone this way for you. I hope you are able to find a reason to stay. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Even hobbies can be a reason to stay.

 

[frost_]

If it's not too personal, did you feel like expanding on the chance you had to live a better life?

 

[Buh-bye!]

At this point I'm going to do it. I'm worthless in the sense that I have nothing important to bring any living human being. No intelligence no good personality no bad personality no talent no attractiveness or kindness just hack shit and stupidity. but that's not the thing that makes me feel like living isn't an option. It's the fact that I also have to live with the fact that I had the chance to live a better life and the realization I wil never get it. If I found a reason to keep going, one that wouldn't go anywhere I would stay. But I don't. Where do I find one?

agreed.
i feel the same about myself, and all of it is actually true so i also resort to dying since i have no cause for this place, i am a liability right now and i can't live in the state i am in. i don't want to change either i have not mental energy to make things normal or shit. so i'll just fier

 

[dreamcatcher90]

I am very sorry that you feel this way about yourself. Many people suffer from the same problems as you.
You can always create a plan to help yourself a bit.

• Try doing some sports or going to the gym, you will get a better physique that might help you to feel more attractive.
• Start a new course, there's plenty of paid and free courses online, plus you will learn a new skill.
• Help others in need. You could volunteer in an animal shelter, that might give some purpose and meaning in your life.
• Try getting the support you need, talk with a therapist. Maybe a good antidepressant could help.
• There's plenty of free and paid games to distract you from negative thinking. Personally, I love League of Legends and Stardew Valley. Lague of Legends is a competitive game where you play with others and Stardew Valley is a cozy farming game with an immersive storyline. I can spend many hours just making a cup of cocoa and taking care of my crops/fishing and getting to know the storylines of other npc's
• Remember that many people are going through a lot and life consists of ups and downs.
• Stay away from social media, it's mostly fake.
• Give yourself time and don't forget to put in some effort. Things will change only if you want them to change.
• Good luck, wishing you the best.

 

[shekindabadtho…]

I'm sorry things have gone this way for you. I hope you are able to find a reason to stay. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Even hobbies can be a reason to stay.

Late reply but yeah I do have hobbies and things that I enjoy but, sometimes it just feels like a chore even though I want yo keep it going and even if it didn't, having things that I like aren't good enough for me to stay and bare the pain I give myself AND others ITS ASS. But I feel like there's GOT to be something past forcing myself to push on and keeping myself here just cause living is more convenient than trying to fine a good method and planning it out.

I am very sorry that you feel this way about yourself. Many people suffer from the same problems as you.
You can always create a plan to help yourself a bit.

• Try doing some sports or going to the gym, you will get a better physique that might help you to feel more attractive.
• Start a new course, there's plenty of paid and free courses online, plus you will learn a new skill.
• Help others in need. You could volunteer in an animal shelter, that might give some purpose and meaning in your life.
• Try getting the support you need, talk with a therapist. Maybe a good antidepressant could help.
• There's plenty of free and paid games to distract you from negative thinking. Personally, I love League of Legends and Stardew Valley. Lague of Legends is a competitive game where you play with others and Stardew Valley is a cozy farming game with an immersive storyline. I can spend many hours just making a cup of cocoa and taking care of my crops/fishing and getting to know the storylines of other npc's
• Remember that many people are going through a lot and life consists of ups and downs.
• Stay away from social media, it's mostly fake.
• Give yourself time and don't forget to put in some effort. Things will change only if you want them to change.
• Good luck, wishing you the best.

Shit I'll try

I'm sorry things have gone this way for you. I hope you are able to find a reason to stay. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Even hobbies can be a reason to stay.

 

[cryone]

do you think a pet dog or cat could help? tons of people on this forum love their pets to death.

It's the fact that I also have to live with the fact that I had the chance to live a better life and the realization I wil never get it.

I feel the same way. but remember, we still have plenty of life ahead of us. i'm guessing you're still pretty young from your lingo. being reminiscent of past mistakes doesn't help us, but thinking abt changing the future can. I've noticed lots of older people, like seniors, say they wish they didn't let their regret takeover n prevent them from achieving great things when they were younger.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's the fact that I also have to live with the fact that I had the chance to live a better life and the realization I will never get it.

Totally relate. I had chances in life. Some I never pursued because of being chicken-shit. Others that I did pursue, when I managed to work up some courage, just didn't work out. There does come a time when it becomes "just too late". Wish I would have ventured down some different roads. It's definitely hard living a life full of regrets.

 

[shekindabadtho…]

If it's not too personal, did you feel like expanding on the chance you had to live a better life?

I imagine if I was in the right state of mind or if I got some kind of help or push she moment I started falling back on, school, being social and what not I would have had the experiences most people had before getting to my age, I would have found love and heartbreak, I would have people depend on me or hate me, I would have made some kind of mark on the world positive or negative, one the average person might make. When I think about how little I've done I think about the people in my life and how I've made no impression on them and if any a negative one that would be a slightly uncomfortable memory once I'm gone. And I'm at the age now where I can't fix it, but I can move on and live with it and make something of myself. But I just can't, I'm too dumb now, too awkward, too self aware to be functional, if I find a bunch of things that I like today, I'll still be an emotional wreck that needs antidepressants and self harm to even think after I'm done distracting myself from the fact that I'm pretty much already dead and just waiting to waste away because trying to attempt would be too big of an inconvenience.

do you think a pet dog or cat could help? tons of people on this forum love their pets to death.



I feel the same way. but remember, we still have plenty of life ahead of us. i'm guessing you're still pretty young from your lingo. being reminiscent of past mistakes doesn't help us, but thinking abt changing the future can. I've noticed lots of older people, like seniors, say they wish they didn't let their regret takeover n prevent them from achieving great things when they were younger.

I'm not sure if I want to change really. I want to change myself not just because I'm depressed but because I'm just that kind of person that is really hard to love and understand. And yeah feeling lonely and like a burden might be things everyone feels from time to time and normal feelings for depressed Ppl but for me it's that and like… nothing else but distractions that hurt me more than help, im on such a bad path and I've been looking at the end of it for such a long time it feels.

agreed.
i feel the same about myself, and all of it is actually true so i also resort to dying since i have no cause for this place, i am a liability right now and i can't live in the state i am in. i don't want to change either i have not mental energy to make things normal or shit. so i'll just fier

REAL SHIT