Help WW3? Cyber attacks? The end?

[macabre.]

I'm not too well informed on any of these subjects but they're getting to me and I feel paralysed… I've not been able to do daily tasks or go to class because it all feels like too much. I don't want to be around to experience a world war, famine, disease, or the end times. I can't stop fearing the worst. We're getting closer to the end and I really can't deal with any more shit than i have to. Everyone I try to talk to reassures me it's just a conspiracy but it couldn't be any closer to the truth…
But all of this only makes me want to ctb faster. I don't know what to do. This is the most sure I've been about taking my life. My SN should arrive soon. I have it all planned out.

 

[roommate]

As of right now, there is no indication of WW3 really happening, it's only speculation.
That kind of speculation was always around since I was born, it's nothing new really.
You might just want to quit reading the news if you're sensitive for these kind of subjects.

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

I'd say quit the news and reddit (if ur using that), we weren't meant to be exposed to this much information, it has a negative effect on a bunch of people.

like roommate said, WW3 is a speculation and every century there has always been people saying "this is it, this is the century that ends the world" yet it didn't happen.

We aren't meant to single-handedly change the world or save it, what you can do is focus on making yourself happy and safe, if you can manage to help others while doing that, its a huge plus. The world is filled with influencers and people saying "YOU should be doing this, YOU should become this, YOU should believe in this", just ignore those.

 

[macabre.]

I'd say quit the news and reddit (if ur using that), we weren't meant to be exposed to this much information, it has a negative effect on a bunch of people.

like roommate said, WW3 is a speculation and every century there has always been people saying "this is it, this is the century that ends the world" yet it didn't happen.

We aren't meant to single-handedly change the world or save it, what you can do is focus on making yourself happy and safe, if you can manage to help others while doing that, its a huge plus. The world is filled with influencers and people saying "YOU should be doing this, YOU should become this, YOU should believe in this", just ignore those.

I mean it's mostly Instagram and news articles for me.. but this is becoming way too much for me to handle. And I've always been neurotic about doomsday since my mom has preached about it since forever. I really don't know what to do anymore. This is just the icing on top. I'm sorry for complaining. I should be dead soon

 

[roommate]

Just so you know, you can literally go to the doctor for these kind of things.

 

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[macabre.]

Just so you know, you can literally go to the doctor for these kind of things.

For what lol? The truth? Don't insinuate I'm crazy for worrying about the future. And I've already been diagnosed with anxiety and BPD.. What else could I possibly do? I've had many therapists that have been useless. I'm on antipsychotics And this Is just one of many reasons I'm planning to die

 

[roommate]

For what lol? The truth? Don't insinuate I'm crazy for worrying about the future. And I've already been diagnosed with anxiety and BPD.. What else could I possibly do? I've had many therapists that have been useless. I'm on antipsychotics And this Is just one of many reasons I'm planning to die

Hey man, I'm just trying to help without judging you nor do I have a archive around with information about what is best for you..

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

I mean it's mostly Instagram and news articles for me.. but this is becoming way too much for me to handle. And I've always been neurotic about doomsday since my mom has preached about it since forever. I really don't know what to do anymore. This is just the icing on top. I'm sorry for complaining. I should be dead soon

Dont be sorry for complaining, we are here to help when we can. I'd say, try quitting Instagram + news, see what effect that has for you, after all why not give it a try if you decide to CTB. The minority is always the loudest, the positive news gets drowned down because it isn't getting enough clicks.

Heck, you could even make it a challenge; read one positive news article a day, any article. What is there to loose?

 

[macabre.]

Dont be sorry for complaining, we are here to help when we can. I'd say, try quitting Instagram + news, see what effect that has for you, after all why not give it a try if you decide to CTB. The minority is always the loudest, the positive news gets drowned down because it isn't getting enough clicks.

Heck, you could even make it a challenge; read one positive news article a day, any article. What is there to loose?

Thanks for the optimism. I'll try to stay away from that type of media but this is something far more deep rooted in me. I'll give it a chance but I think I've spiralled too far. Thank you borh for the responses

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

Thanks for the optimism. I'll try to stay away from that type of media but this is something far more deep rooted in me. I'll give it a chance but I think I've spiralled too far. Thank you borh for the responses

Aye thats fair enough, its always worth a shot. A problem isn't solved by jumping ahead, but by taking steps, no matter how small.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not brilliantly informed either. However, our press and media in general love to scare monger. With everything we are exposed to, these industries lean more and more on sensationalism to grab our attention. A cyber attack sounds far more menacing than a fault in the system. Prospects of a nuclear war are more attention grabbing than one country retaliating to attacks by another. It's not to say it can't happen but I doubt there's strong evidence that either have or will.

I do understand though. For me, I sometimes think- it will be so weird that I've been worrying about work or, forcing myself to do domestic crap I hate if we all get killed.

 

[bankai]

Please listen, the media loves to exaggerate things just to get clicks and views. This is how they get paid. Everything is running on getting someone's attention these days.

 

[macabre.]

I'm not brilliantly informed either. However, our press and media in general love to scare monger. With everything we are exposed to, these industries lean more and more on sensationalism to grab our attention. A cyber attack sounds far more menacing than a fault in the system. Prospects of a nuclear war are more attention grabbing than one country retaliating to attacks by another. It's not to say it can't happen but I doubt there's strong evidence that either have or will.

I do understand though. For me, I sometimes think- it will be so weird that I've been worrying about work or, forcing myself to do domestic crap I hate if we all get killed.

Yeah it really highlights the nihilism of it all, I don't really see the point if we'll all be dead soon which is what I believe will happen. I know it's probably idiotic of me to be this gullible and consumed by media. But the COVID pandemic altered my perception of the world, and I believe anyrhing can happen after that. I used to think my mom was ridiculous for mentioning her religious prophecies about the end, and I've drifted far from religion… but things are starting to click, you get Me?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah it really highlights the nihilism of it all, I don't really see the point if we'll all be dead soon which is what I believe will happen. I know it's probably idiotic of me to be this gullible and consumed by media. But the COVID pandemic altered my perception of the world, and I believe anyrhing can happen after that. I used to think my mom was ridiculous for mentioning her religious prophecies about the end, and I've drifted far from religion… but things are starting to click, you get Me?

I suppose though, people have been predicting the end of the world for centuries. I think there were times we came closer- world wars with multiple countries involved would seem more likely to end in annihilation. I wouldn't be surprised if more pandemics didn't hit in future and, I'm sure the climate crisis will continue to esculate more severely.

Trouble is though- it's a gamble. If we decide not to pursue career goals, study, look after ourselves- what if we remain living? Will that make our lives better or worse? I know from experience that I detest wage slavery jobs so, I know I need to do what I can to avoid that fate. It's certainly difficult though. Especially when I detest doing so many things.

 

[macabre.]

Trouble is though- it's a gamble. If we decide not to pursue career goals, study, look after ourselves- what if we remain living? Will that make our lives better or worse? I know from experience that I detest wage slavery jobs so, I know I need to do what I can to avoid that fate. It's certainly difficult though. Especially when I detest doing so many things.

This is what I struggle with. Often times I say to myself i either want to live a good life or die. I can't imagine an in between. I can't justify struggling at all. And whenever I'm in a specific mood, I can't remember anything else. It feels like that's all I've ever known. So when I'm particularly suicidal i act upon it whether that's by acquiring SN or preparation. Usually I snap out of it before actually ingesting it, but every time it's happened I've come closer to doing it. I'm a very impulsive person due to BPD so I can't be reasoned with whenever I'm suicidal. I can't see another solution

 

[Forever Sleep]

This is what I struggle with. Often times I say to myself i either want to live a good life or die. I can't imagine an in between. I can't justify struggling at all. And whenever I'm in a specific mood, I can't remember anything else. It feels like that's all I've ever known. So when I'm particularly suicidal i act upon it whether that's by acquiring SN or preparation. Usually I snap out of it before actually ingesting it, but every time it's happened I've come closer to doing it. I'm a very impulsive person due to BPD so I can't be reasoned with whenever I'm suicidal. I can't see another solution

I'm fairly practical too. It made me feel better to get the SN method assembled ready. I'm not really impulsive though. I want to wait for my Dad to pass first so, I'm really just in limbo at the moment. Fighting hard enough so that life doesn't fall completely to bits but, not fighting to thrive anymore. It's just so incredibly tedious to be honest. Struggling to support a life I'm desperate to be rid of.

Does it frighten you when you are impulsive? Does it feel like the thoughts and drives are not entirely your own then?

 

[macabre.]

I'm fairly practical too. It made me feel better to get the SN method assembled ready. I'm not really impulsive though. I want to wait for my Dad to pass first so, I'm really just in limbo at the moment. Fighting hard enough so that life doesn't fall completely to bits but, not fighting to thrive anymore. It's just so incredibly tedious to be honest. Struggling to support a life I'm desperate to be rid of.

Does it frighten you when you are impulsive? Does it feel like the thoughts and drives are not entirely your own then?

So you're in the in between . I'm sorry you have to bare through it all. IMO Thats the worst stage to be in, a form of torture. Oh god, especially having to wait for your dad to die first and going through the pain of that.
Yeah it does frighten me when I'm impulsive because I do things that get me in trouble and I often times regret. It feels like a different person, like an alter and that I have no control over any of it. It's like I'm hypnotised and nothing can snap me out of it, just a matter of time usually

 

[imOK]

I stopped reading the news months ago. If we are at war I will be able to tell by the noises outside I guess. I recommend you to do the same OP. You can affect absolutely nothing. The only thing you can do is vote and that has such an abstract butterfly effect on everything that it's basically "next to nothing". Just stop reading the news and social media. Simple as. Read a book instead. You're staying awake at nights over things you cannot change.

 

[Forever Sleep]

So you're in the in between . I'm sorry you have to bare through it all. IMO Thats the worst stage to be in, a form of torture. Oh god, especially having to wait for your dad to die first and going through the pain of that.
Yeah it does frighten me when I'm impulsive because I do things that get me in trouble and I often times regret. It feels like a different person, like an alter and that I have no control over any of it. It's like I'm hypnotised and nothing can snap me out of it, just a matter of time usually

Thank you. I suppose I'm hoping not to have to live with the grief for long. I'm hoping I suppose that his death will be part of what motivates mine.

That must be terrifying to go through. I'm really sorry. I guess it's also the fear of these mood swings ahead, even if you're feeling ok in the moment? That's got to be especially tough when you want to have a method to hand. Is your hope to commit in a calmer period- if you eventually do?

 

[JesiBel]

I understand you, the news every day is not pleasant at all, I also feel a little paranoid about that.

The elite has the power to control us even without using force. We are increasingly monitored and watched by them. Like rats or a laboratory experiment.

They are smart enough to create chaos and mental terror, I'm not sure the world will collapse... otherwise they too will perish.

Freedom is an illusion. This is a cage with no way out. It's not a friendly world to live in.

I always wonder if we as ordinary civilians.. all united, could do anything about it.

 

[cowboypants]

I follow news a lot so I think i can offer some perspective. We are not close to the end or anything, the elites and ruling class would never want to lose their luxurious life.

But this has been a crazy decade in recent times from covid to the rest. It's nothing new if you look past into the history. There were famines, viruses and wars. Atleast we aren't at the risk of famines now.

 

[macabre.]

Thank you. I suppose I'm hoping not to have to live with the grief for long. I'm hoping I suppose that his death will be part of what motivates mine.

That must be terrifying to go through. I'm really sorry. I guess it's also the fear of these mood swings ahead, even if you're feeling ok in the moment? That's got to be especially tough when you want to have a method to hand. Is your hope to commit in a calmer period- if you eventually do?

I don't know what my hope is. I don't know what to expect. I don't know what I want for myself . Ideally i get what I want in the moment. This time I doubt I'll throw out my SN when it gets here. And then it'll be a matter of time. So if I do hope to die then I hope it happens as planned. And if not then I hope to survive ig. One of my fears is regretting it once I've done it and not surviving it. There's someone who's willing to be on call with me then so they might be able to distract me from the mental pain of it all

 

[bankai]

I always wonder if we as ordinary civilians.. all united, could do anything about it.

Absolutely. It will happen at some point, just watch. I mean, it happened during the French Revolution. It will happen again at some point. The problem is it won't really create any real change. This is the way of the world. Things will reset to their original status.

 

[lifeless.wav]

Pakistan and India war is at the door/ around the corner.