LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
i have too much to say and no one to listen.
i use journaling as a key part of managing my mental health. i write a lot of essay/blog style pieces. i have bits and pieces of 'my story' half composed. i haven't shared any of it anywhere.
i've exhausted all standard and specialist therapies available.

i so badly want, need, to write... what i don't know, something, anything but i have such a huge block... i lack self discipline and motivation...

Does anyone else write to help mental health? particularly for healing childhood trauma...

Has anyone done structured/guided Writing Therapy of any sort?

i still wish to end my life but something in me keeps me going (human instinct?)... i hope writing could bring me some peace in myself as i live my final weeks, months... who knows, but just maybe i can find enough from it to keep going.
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

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Nov 30, 2020
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I write down my thoughts then give them to my cpn and support workers.
 
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Moonomyth

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Feb 6, 2020
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I don't personally have the patience to maintain a journal for any length of time, but it's a reasonably common activity. There are also a number of solo journaling games out now that often provide a kind of focus point for people to write about their circumstances in fictional rather than real settings. That detachment can help with dissociating with trauma.
 
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Miss_Takes

Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Dec 4, 2020
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i have too much to say and no one to listen.
i use journaling as a key part of managing my mental health. i write a lot of essay/blog style pieces. i have bits and pieces of 'my story' half composed. i haven't shared any of it anywhere.
i've exhausted all standard and specialist therapies available.

i so badly want, need, to write... what i don't know, something, anything but i have such a huge block... i lack self discipline and motivation...

Does anyone else write to help mental health? particularly for healing childhood trauma...

Has anyone done structured/guided Writing Therapy of any sort?

i still wish to end my life but something in me keeps me going (human instinct?)... i hope writing could bring me some peace in myself as i live my final weeks, months... who knows, but just maybe i can find enough from it to keep going.
Have you tried stream of consciousness writing .... no form or active thought required .... just writing as it comes, even if its about your itchy nose. Sometimes helpful when feeling blocked ... sometimes insightful depending on what comes up ... sometimes just amusing ... sometimes a pointless exercise in nothingness.

Im not a 'writer' although I do enjoy a poetic thought or two on occasion.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
I kept a journal for the last year or so. Now and then, I would go back and read it all. It was so negative, so sad, such a sorry life diary. It seemed to help to write it down, though?

I decided I would write only positive or even just mundane things. It kept going back to sad, anxious and depressed. Then I realized that after writing it down, I felt worse.

One evening, about a month ago, I had a huge argument on the phone with my sister. I hung up and blocked her. I had the worst anxiety attack ever. I stood in my laundry room and screamed and cried and paced around. Then I became very paranoid that she would call the cops on me (wellness check). That journal would have been proof that I was a danger. In a pure panic, I shredded it. All of it. And as I shredded it, I calmed down and it was like all the crap I had written about went into the shredder. I had not planned it for that, it just happened.

I don't journal anymore.
 
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LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
Have you tried stream of consciousness writing .... no form or active thought required .... just writing as it comes, even if its about your itchy nose. Sometimes helpful when feeling blocked ... sometimes insightful depending on what comes up ... sometimes just amusing ... sometimes a pointless exercise in nothingness.

Im not a 'writer' although I do enjoy a poetic thought or two on occasion.
A lot is written like this, i just let myself ramble anything. Can be an entertaining re read a few days later
I kept a journal for the last year or so. Now and then, I would go back and read it all. It was so negative, so sad, such a sorry life diary. It seemed to help to write it down, though?

I decided I would write only positive or even just mundane things. It kept going back to sad, anxious and depressed. Then I realized that after writing it down, I felt worse.

One evening, about a month ago, I had a huge argument on the phone with my sister. I hung up and blocked her. I had the worst anxiety attack ever. I stood in my laundry room and screamed and cried and paced around. Then I became very paranoid that she would call the cops on me (wellness check). That journal would have been proof that I was a danger. In a pure panic, I shredded it. All of it. And as I shredded it, I calmed down and it was like all the crap I had written about went into the shredder. I had not planned it for that, it just happened.

I don't journal anymore.
Sorry you had a such a bad experience, journaling isn't for everyone. Sometimes writing can be counter productive for me and just reinforces my misery. i avoid jounaling too much when like this but that often leads to not journaling at all for too long.
 
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wordsonscreen

wordsonscreen

Peanuts aren't nuts! They're seeds!
Jan 21, 2021
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Stream of consciousness writing can be amazing!
 
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