writing a note to my parents

[miserabletires9]

by ctb, I am essentially killing my parents. I feel so selfish. I am their only child. And they are already really old. I can totally see my parents follow me. Or it's gonna be too much for them to bear, they essentially lose their basic daily functions as well. But I cannot go on anymore. I am at work, and cannot stop crying. Had to always go to another separate room and close the door and cry. I am barely working. One more week of this, and I am gonna get fired for not performing.

but I feel so distraught knowing that by killing myself, I am essentially killing them as well. And even in my last note, I just cannot bring myself to tell them all the stuff happened to me last several years. and the last straw. I just keep telling them that I am sorry, and I am better off.

and the worst of all, it would be a complete shock to them. I kept everything from them, all the things I went through. But even in the notes, I don't know where to start and tell them. I will probably just ask my only friend who knows tell my parents.

 

[pickajack]

Sorry you're in so much pain. Glad you have a friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

But I guess the reality is that we all have to die and lose everything someday, grief and loss are just an inevitable part of existing here, there is no escaping this. It must be a painful situation to be trapped in, but after all it's a personal decision when to exit this world and nobody is obligated to suffer all for the sake of other people. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry you are going through this. You are being thought of, as well as your parents. I hope you find peace whatever you choice may be.

 

[HelloReaper]

You don't owe your parents anything.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You're in a tough situation and I feel for you. Guilt can be very powerful. It sounds like you have arrived, or are very arriving, at that place where your own pain outweighs the pain that your death will cause others. Maybe there'll be some support for them to help them get through their grief.