tomz323
Walking to the bus stop
- Mar 29, 2019
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So anyway. I'm planning on cutting contact with my parents. I tried this year to move back home and to build some sort of relationship. But I realize now that is in vain. They are toxic, and to fully heal I cannot be around them. My therapist said maybe I should write them a letter to get all my feelings out. Spent about an hour writing this. Wouldn't mind some second opinions.
Dear Mum and Dad
Please read the following carefully
This is the last contact you will have with me for the foreseeable future. I have realized that I have never been happy for the past 22 years when you were significantly in my life. You have never shown significant signs of love or affection. Never sincerely apologized for the mental and physical abuse you put me through. I quote "Sometimes I think you deserved it?" that statement alone is enough to tell me the kind of people you are. In what would that you live in does an 8-year-old boy deserve to have things thrown at him and beaten with a stick by a 40-year-old man?
Just because you endured abuse as a child by your parents Jennifer that doesn't give you the right to tell your 14-year-old he is "Useless", "Thick as pig shit", "Slow like an old man" I could go on but many of these memories are too painful. Many of which have returned to the surface of my mind living with you two. You seem to think that this was nothing and brush it off but it has severe effects on a child, things that still affects me to this day.
You have never taken into account what I want, I am a member of the family and should be treated as such. Yes, I understand you are the caregivers but a family is a democracy and decisions should be made together. Not just by you, and not just for Roderick.
You two are my parents so your actions stick in my mind, as a child you are my world. Have a think about that. I was not a little adult. I was a child.
Please keep in mind, most people feel warmth in their parent's voice. I feel nothing as such from you. I don't even know what to put into words what I feel from you.
It is time for both of you to start seeking therapy for both of your very obvious to me, severe mental health conditions. You both have no control over your emotions, obviously anger management issues, sudden flips in personality. I don't know if this is because of something leftover from your childhood but you seem to be stunted children yourself.
Until you have done as I have asked please make no attempt to contact me. I tried to rekindle something in the past few months but I see now that is impossible and I should have known better, known that you are stuck in your ways. And known you are not sorry for what you did.
I now need to do what is best for me and make myself proud and to do that I must remove all toxic forces in my life.
And before you say anything. Yes, I am gratefully for a roof over my head and for food being on the table. But these are human rights. I am also gratefully for being driven around. However…
You two need to realize that perhaps you need to look inward (as do I) and not to just try and pray your problems away. Which I believe is how you will respond to this letter. But please, ask yourself this. Has it worked thus far?
Please look into therapy as have suggested as it is unhealthy for me to be around such mental unstable people. I need to worry about my own mental health now, you two are obviously not the solution.
Goodbye Tom.
Dear Mum and Dad
Please read the following carefully
This is the last contact you will have with me for the foreseeable future. I have realized that I have never been happy for the past 22 years when you were significantly in my life. You have never shown significant signs of love or affection. Never sincerely apologized for the mental and physical abuse you put me through. I quote "Sometimes I think you deserved it?" that statement alone is enough to tell me the kind of people you are. In what would that you live in does an 8-year-old boy deserve to have things thrown at him and beaten with a stick by a 40-year-old man?
Just because you endured abuse as a child by your parents Jennifer that doesn't give you the right to tell your 14-year-old he is "Useless", "Thick as pig shit", "Slow like an old man" I could go on but many of these memories are too painful. Many of which have returned to the surface of my mind living with you two. You seem to think that this was nothing and brush it off but it has severe effects on a child, things that still affects me to this day.
You have never taken into account what I want, I am a member of the family and should be treated as such. Yes, I understand you are the caregivers but a family is a democracy and decisions should be made together. Not just by you, and not just for Roderick.
You two are my parents so your actions stick in my mind, as a child you are my world. Have a think about that. I was not a little adult. I was a child.
Please keep in mind, most people feel warmth in their parent's voice. I feel nothing as such from you. I don't even know what to put into words what I feel from you.
It is time for both of you to start seeking therapy for both of your very obvious to me, severe mental health conditions. You both have no control over your emotions, obviously anger management issues, sudden flips in personality. I don't know if this is because of something leftover from your childhood but you seem to be stunted children yourself.
Until you have done as I have asked please make no attempt to contact me. I tried to rekindle something in the past few months but I see now that is impossible and I should have known better, known that you are stuck in your ways. And known you are not sorry for what you did.
I now need to do what is best for me and make myself proud and to do that I must remove all toxic forces in my life.
And before you say anything. Yes, I am gratefully for a roof over my head and for food being on the table. But these are human rights. I am also gratefully for being driven around. However…
You two need to realize that perhaps you need to look inward (as do I) and not to just try and pray your problems away. Which I believe is how you will respond to this letter. But please, ask yourself this. Has it worked thus far?
Please look into therapy as have suggested as it is unhealthy for me to be around such mental unstable people. I need to worry about my own mental health now, you two are obviously not the solution.
Goodbye Tom.