by far i would rather have a painless instant Death
Non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection
there is book of reasons in general not just my horrible life .
eternal non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly it's a trillion times worse than one can imagine. That's why i say permanent non-existence is the only perfection. non-existence forever is the only thing with zero pain , zero suffering , zero problems
while alive in this horrible evil world Any human or other animal is constantly under threats of something horrible happening accidents, diseases, brain stroke, parasites, attacks, kidnapping torture, injustice oppression, injustice, bullying, lies, scams, extreme torture, unbearable pain something going wrong with some organ or process in the body , more.
additionally you have to always be a slave of the body and mind and to society others etc , having to work , chores , feed al the time , find shelter
constant unbearable pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine
there is nothing worth even 3 seconds of the worst pain to me much less hours of the worst constant pain or years of it.
1 micro second after my brain dies it's non-existence forever the ultimate bliss
life has tortured a trillion trilion beings , trillions this year just the fish and many animals for example . just fish for example can suffer intense pain humans torture at least a trillion fish a year for 22 minutes of intense pain as the article below shows. but life and this world has tortured billions of humans too. i worked in a nursing home . it's hell .
Each year, a trillion or so fish are pulled from the water, typically destined for our plates.
www.sciencealert.com
i just listed some reasons why life and this world are evil. there is much more i haven't even posted on this website and no one has put it all together but it's evil beyond belief reasons on top of reasons evil on top of evil. i choose not to partake in life activities . i consider me consciously "enjoying" myself condoning this evil and all the torture that life and this world has perpetrated on me and trillions of sentient animals including billions of humans, i consider me consciously doing a "pleasurable" addictions a vote for pro-life and of course addicts me more to that activity and wastes my time i could be getting my suicide method and plan ready to go.
i wrote thing on this website that i think maybe some on this site might understand. but no one seems to understand several things like the thing i keep saying about pain is really a billion times worse than one can remember or imagine. idt what the normies would think of these things i wrote on this post and other things probably just try to get me put in jail or mental hospital or ban me from . but there's much more that i can't write even on here because if no one understands that pain really is a bilion times worse than you can remember or imagine ...
i'm not a fish . i have consciousness . although imo they do too. but i have knowledge i learned through research and can realize i have to and want to kill myself. i aquired the means , one chance to get to non-existence and out of this hell . and i will take it .
i choose my Death asap