Discussion would you leave a note?

[thebunny]

i'm currently having second thoughts about leaving a note when i'm gone. a good part of me wants to because i feel like they deserve to know why i did it. on the other hand, an angry part of me doesn't want to, a revenge for all the bad things they've done towards me. i feel like they don't deserve any closure just as they did not give me any. i don't know. i'm torn about it all.

so, would you leave a note?

 

[Jrmull1993]

I have 6 notes I'll be leaving behind, all addressed to particular people who I see as being the most important in my life..

I feel personally responsible for thanking those close to me one final time.

 

[notlongnow]

I will be leaving a note. We owe some that closure at least!

 

[7b48hl]

No

 

[Grav]

Yes. So far I've only gotten the police note done. Once I start writing them I'm on the path so I'm self-regulating my downward spiral.

 

[Mofreeko]

No. I don't want to leave something behind as a constant reminder of my ctb. Something my family members can find in a drawer every now and then and remind them how I chose death over them. There's nothing I could write that would make them understand anyway.

 

[Hope:-)]

Just to sort out finances and such.

 

[[HNO]]

yes. i will encrypt it in emojis

 

[Eternal Soul]

I'm still sort of considering it, but I'm leaning toward saying yes.

 

[Astral Storm]

I think so. I would try to explain my sorrow and why I did it. Most people just don't take my issues seriously. They are just telling me that this is life and I should get over it. The thing is that I can't. I cannot get over all of this and it torments me greatly.

 

[StarlightDreamer]

I personally plan on leaving last letters for close friends. I'd like to say bye to them one last time, and assure them that I didn't suffer. (I'm planning to use SN).

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I would as it would act as a form of closure for those left behind and it would mean that they are not left with unanswered questions. I see leaving a note as being better than leaving no explanation. However I do think that no matter what I wrote those left behind would never be able to fully understand my feelings towards existence and what brought me to this point.

 

[notocarpediem]

Yes. I did on my previous attempt, but it didn't seem to help my partner to understand fully why I wanted to die.

 

[theboy]

2 notes

 

[Krieger]

I'd leave a very detailed autobiography & essay explaining why I did it and post it online. Kinda like Mitchell Heisman. https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/9429159-suicide-note

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I would definitely want to leave notes trying to explain why I did it and trying to absolve anyone from guilt or the worry that they could have even been able to stop me.

I've had the odd horrible person in my life but mostly good people who it might come as a shock to. Not that words are really going to make them understand but it's something I guess. I've been grateful when loved ones who have passed left me letters (from natural causes).

The person who I would say is a major part of initiating this path wouldn't feel blame or guilt anyway because (in my opinion), they are a narcissist and see themselves as a victim.

I do get where you are coming from though. I think when I initially wanted to ctb (age 10), I even drafted a note blaming them! Guess it depends on whether you have any nice/supportive people in your life. Also think that it can be damaging to you to act in a spiteful way- even though they likely deserve it and even though it's not really spiteful to not do something. Just think- if you have the strength to be the better person, although you might resent it, it might feel better to have done it- so your mind is more at peace if you go ahead with it. Whatever you decide, I wish you peace.

 

[imcurious]

Yes, but it would be a rather informational one. Access to my cards, bank info, etc. How I died, so that an autopsy isn't too difficult to create. I don't know, I guess I would just lay out all the details so that my passing isn't a difficult one to understand. I don't know if I would include my reasoning though.

 

[Muerte negra]

Lo e pensado Miles de veces, y que mejor nota que una carpeta llena de recuerdos felices (Fotos,cartas,boletos de vacaciones, dibujos,recuerdos en papel me entienden?) Tengo una USB con videos con las personas que más amo (Mis hijos, madre, hermanos) , todo listo para cuando se tenga que utilizar, es JODIDAMENTE TRIZTE, y asu vez tan armonioso .

Paz, amor y empatía, buenas madrugadas!!! .

 

[Darkover]

no point everything that is will be

 

[PleaseTakeMeAway]

Maybe. I don't know, these people would learn too much. Maybe a note saying "If you're reading this, please don't save me" would be better.

 

[Anonymus]

No, they didn't buy me in life, they will understand me later. But I clarify that I am not thinking about killing myself.
//
No, no m'han comprés en vida em comprendràn després. Però aclareixo que no estic pensant en suïcidar-me.

 

[GettingOut]

My notes are addressed to those who hurt me the most. I'm asking the narcissist, the main reason behind my ctb, to identify my body. That way, she can see physical evidence of how I'm shredded to pieces and gutted inside.

Those shocked can then look to her for answers or an explanation.

 

[flypno]

not having a note is actually the only excuse for me for not to ctb. i think there´s no other reason. if i would write a note, it could be the last necessary step.
but at least i have to thank my dad...

 

[Install-Gentoo]

Don't even know what to write. Earlier this year, I wrote a shitload of stuff on my walls but then I let a bit too much slip to one of my friends so I... well long story short that "note" is gone. But knowing how poorly pro-lifers understand anything we say, writing a note as an "explanation" or "final message" really seems pointless. If they didnt listen before, why would they listen now? Especially if you dare mention anything about "suicide rights" in your note, you can bet a spot in heaven that message is going to land on deaf ears. No one's gonna support "suicide rights" when someone they loved just died to suicide.
But yeah... no clue what to say when I've already said everything I can to those that it would matter to, and they dont bother hearing it.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

People in my life don't deserve any sort of note or explanation.

 

[outatime_85]

Not that my family would care or even read them, but yes, I plan to leave notes and my journals as well.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yes I would leave a note so people wouldn't think it's impulsive for one (although no chance of that really anyway since my mother knows how depressed I am) and to absolve her of any guilt-loved ones often feel guilty even when there is no need to so I'm gonna make sure to say I just can't handle life it's not anyone else's fault so there are no "what ifs".

 

[Inferno]

I'd leave a succinct note on my hard drive for my family and police to read. But for the general public, nothing. Fuck everyone, I hope they never find out why I did it, I hope they wonder for the rest of their lives and get no closure, they don't deserve it.