Discussion would you get your life magically changed to be ideal or end it all?

[cogmachine]

even if it was ideal, i would rather end it because of inevitabilities like health problems or generally getting old, anxiety and uncertainty is brooding. but i would like to hear what you think.

 

[Xernarot]

Even if I could get the ideal life, whatever that really is, I would choose to end it.
I know you said it's magical and all, but I can't help but feel freaked out by a "perfect" life. I can't possibly even begin to imagine what it would be like. It just feels uncanny to me.

 

[TAW122]

I personally would rather CTB and just not exist. Even if life was better, in the end, we all will (inevitably) die due to natural causes and while I may have temporary pleasure (during the good times), it was still better to never have existed to begin with.

 

[cogmachine]

Even if I could get the ideal life, whatever that really is, I would choose to end it.
I know you said it's magical and all, but I can't help but feel freaked out by a "perfect" life. I can't possibly even begin to imagine what it would be like. It just feels uncanny to me.

very understandable, after so much stagnating you'll began resenting it and circle back to misery.
"After a few hundred years, you'll...
Begin to hate this happy lifestyle.
You'll kill your wonderful girlfriend.
You'll kill your great friends.
You'll try to end your fun life."

 

[0000000000000]

I do not think that in this universe it is possible to have my ideal life.

 

[orca87]

I was closer to the ideal life than I ever thought would be possible, and yet, didn't realize it when I had it — and destroyed it.

Now, there is nothing for me anymore (again).

Yet I clicked "ideal life" in the poll. Because of the word magical. To me that would include a time machine.

 

[jamie_]

the former

 

[ptolemaea]

i'd like to try out the ideal life at least. even if i'm still miserable and want to CTB, at least i tried. i'll be dead for all of eternity, so i'm currently trying to see if anything could help me at all. there's no harm in it. the SN will wait.

 

[theocean]

I cant possibly imagine what an ideal life would look like for me. I am who I am because of all the shit that's been thrown my way, and in how I've grown and reacted to it. The single biggest thing an "ideal" version of myself would be is to have been born and assigned female at birth, but then that nullifies my very existence as a transwoman. Me being trans defines who I am, among many many other things. But it is the biggest one. And an ideal future version of me is terrifying. If everything suddenly starts going right, all of my dreams become real, and I suddenly *am* the woman I always imagine I *could* be, what next? Where do I go from there? Theres nothing to aspire to anymore, and the threat of failure is gone. I would be living a life that I couldn't even recognize as my own. To be perfect, to be ideal, is to cease being human.

If my ideal life is simply being safe, secure, loved, and satisfied, then I would still ctb. I transitioned because I felt that in my heart, it not only was the right thing to do but I would have done it if it killed me. Choosing my own path based on what I feel in my heart is all that matters to me. It, to use a word, is my Ideal. If I ever lost my ability to have deep reflective meditation with myself, if I ever lost my sense of self, I would be worse than dead. I would cease to be me. My heart and intuition tell me that the bus is coming soon, and so even an ideal version of me would ctb.

 

[Skathon]

What's the difference? /j

 

[YourAverageLurker]

Does an ideal life include an ideal world? A portrayed image of perfection with the ability to numb your perception? To me that sounds like childhood, home. Where I belong.

 

[outrider567]

I had the Ideal Life and it was taken from me

 

[Forever Sleep]

An 'ideal' life seems like it would need a re-design of the human race AND this world to eliminate suffering FOR ALL TIME. Would we even recognise this world, or ourselves anymore? Seems too good to be true... How would we appeciate the good if we didn't have some bad? How would that be balanced? Some people can cope with more hardship than others... some even seem to enjoy it as a challenge! How would a world work where one organism doesn't live off of another?

Ultimately- yeah- you could be selfish about it and wish for money/love/happiness for yourself. What about everything/everyone else though? How 'ideal' is it that the rest of the world carries on on it's current tragectory?

Nah- CTB seems simpler to me... I don't think I quite have the imagination to picture an 'ideal' world.

 

[RainyPrimadonna]

I think I'd rather CTB. What even is an ideal life? Being super smart, hard working, good looking, healthy, kind, generous, loving, financially well off, ideal family situation, loving and caring friends? I couldn't imagine actually having a life like that. I daydream about those kinds of things, but when it comes to it, I just can't imagine myself actually being in that position. My daydreams are fantasies, that would be reality, it's too good to be true. I don't think I would be me if I was in that position, I'd just be, some other person, the thought of that is pretty terrifying. I would rather ctb because I feel like an 'ideal world' would just be too good to be true.

An ideal world for me, wouldn't eliminate all the other horrible things others go through, the idea itself just feels wrong. I am selfish, but not so selfish so that I would wish for the perfect life and leave everyone else to the cruel merciless world.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

magic doesn't exist, so the first option can't ever be obtained

 

[L4in]

It wouldn't even have to be ideal. Just get rid of some bad stuff and I think I'd be fine

 

[Glandular]

Since I'm here because of a physical disease, I would choose an ideal life which hopefully includes "being free from any health related issues". Of course not being born would have been the best outcome but that wasn't my decision

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Wave that wand baby

 

[SilentSadness]

I have no idea what "ideal life" could possibly mean. I find it hard to imagine a life I would like to have. Even lives without any illness, betrayal, discomfort or poverty are ultimately weighed down by relationships, sickness and other boundless pains of life. I personally want none of it and to be at true peace. In a way, death is my ideal life.

 

[wastingpotential]

if i wasn't aware that it was me who changed it, yes. i don't think i could live in a world i wake up one day in and watch things happen exactly how i'd want them to (ex; someone i don't talk to reaching out to me again; getting crazy rich out of nowhere) and always remember that it's because i choose it to be this way.

i think i'd go crazy and constantly question if any of it including myself is real at that point.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non existence is ideal to me, I could never have any interest in having to exist, existence is a completely futile, undesirable process where it's completely impossible to eliminate suffering. I simply don't wish to be conscious and aware, enduring worthless days just to decay from old age.

 

[GasMonkey]

Young GigaChad body with optimal health + enough money to live all my life without working = I wouldn't CTB

 

[aimless_arrow]

I think if I had an ideal life from the start, CTB wouldn't have even crossed my mind. Some (most?) people go through life without ever having suicidal thoughts. To be honest, some things in life are pretty enjoyable, from eating a delicious meal to falling in love. If I was mentally well and had good circumstances growing up, I'd be blissfully oblivious to the pain of existence and simply be satisfied with the little joys in life.

So yes, if I could have an ideal life + erase my current memories, I'd much prefer that to CTB. Otherwise, if erasing memories is not possible, I might be happy for a while but I'll just regress to my suicidal state because of the beliefs and experiences I already have.

 

[Danielwc]

If I was given 6 months to live by the Dr I would be so happy. I would live a totally different life and be so 'me'. I know that would just be a psychological shift but it would change everything. It would feel like a Friday afternoon at school. Why cant I live that life now?

 

[ASAPLeaving]

Ideal life for me would have been born female and grew up to be attractive, or at the very least average looking.

I am here because I do not have that ideal life, so yes I would rather have my ideal life than CTB. However since such ideal life is not possible, I don't want to make any other choice except for CTBing.

 

[Riu]

I think that even if I had my ideal life I would not be happy because that's just how I am. No matter what I have I can only ever really focus on the negatives. I don't know why, this is just the way I am.

 

[Catastrofe]

I do consider an "ideal" life a life in which I have a decent job, fair enough amount of money to do regular stuff, with good friends, passions to pursue - and ideally a partner. Have nothing of that atm. Even though is not something crazy, I have no energies for pursuing it now. A previous disaster relationship taken away everything from me, all my joy for life. It left me something like deadly injured just in front of 2 roads : one is recovery, that look to me like a super-steep and too long road to go for considering my conditions; the other one is ctb, which is the only way I feel I have energies enough to walk.
Although, if Icould, I would rather turn back time and step away from that relationship in time.

 

[hellispink]

Tgere is no such thing as ideal. This world is cruel. Even if you got what you want, you will still suffer and others too. This life is prison and hellish. The only way is death.