Discussion Would you CTB if you knew the last moments of your life were gonna be utter hell??

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

I've severe contamination OCD and I think the last thought I'll ever have will be of my OCD. It's one of the reasons CTBing is so scary and uncomfortable. I know it'll simply be lights out and then hopefully nothingness ... but still ...

 

[Tobacco]

That's why I want to ctb. I see myself in the future as an old man uncapable of taking care of myself and just reaching for a gun. Imagine living alone being unable to work and just starving to death. No thanks.

 

[scharlachrotsan]

it seems like the logical option, it's why assisted suicide is given to paitents of terminal cancer.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes- definitely. I don't feel willing to put up with even the initial stages of a chronic illness. Sorry but life really isn't worth that. I've no dependants to worry about. So- yeah- I'm not willing to put up with pain on top of a life I don't want anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that existence is so hellish and has potential for the most extreme suffering is exactly why wanting suicide is the most rational option, I will always want to ctb no matter what, I despise existence and the suffering it causes, and I know that in the future my existence will just get more unbearable, I dread to think of what lies ahead. It's a curse having the ability to exist in this disgusting world so of course it's true that the only relief lies in permanent non-existence.

 

[loopdaloop]

If it was a guaranteed successful attempt. then yes.

 

[oh_no191]

As much as I wish I could go in a peaceful part of my life. That'll never come to I believe I would go even if it was a bad place

 

[Green Destiny]

Pretty convinced the last moments of my life will be utter hell. I've put my body through so much hard labor that I'm going to be in a lot of pain for the rest of my life and on the other hand I've suffered multiple head injuries which can lead to dementia or Alzheimer's. That's a terrible fate that I want no part of.

 

[delusionalgirl]

Yes, I don't want to be around when the cancer hits stage 4. Hell 3. Or when the dementia starts.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Yes, I don't want to be around when the cancer hits stage 4. Hell 3. Or when the dementia starts.

Can I dm you?

 

[The anhedonic one]

Abso - fucking - loutely yes.
No question about it.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

yes

 

[delusionalgirl]

Can I dm you?

Of course