ayanonikki

ayanonikki

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even if you don't believe in the concept of soulmates, would you stay alive if you had someone (or more than one person) who you felt you truly connected with and could help you through the thoughts/plans you're having now? maybe someone who could make you realise you are worthy of love, if you feel otherwise? or someone who could help you find something in yourself that makes your life worth living?

i think i definitely would.
 
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Escaper Boy

Escaper Boy

累坏了...
Apr 11, 2019
245
One of the most beautiful thing in life is having meaningful human connection. If I could find my "soulmate", the person I could feel strong and deep connection with, I believe I would give life twice or even three times amount of effort compared to what I've been doing right now.
 
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Roberto

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Jan 19, 2019
684
Yes. But I don't want a soulmate. It have no future the relationship. I'm a problem.
 
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Davy

Davy

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Mar 24, 2019
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if i had a soulmate I would probably push them away until they don't want to be with me anymore
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
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He would have to be a well off soulmate because I struggle with formal employment lol! That's not happening at my age.
 
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Life_is_Dead

Life_is_Dead

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Apr 7, 2019
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Wouldn't change my mind. Everything breaks, we all die. The sooner the better.
Doesn't matter what happens in your life, nothing will change the ultimate outcome.

However, given the fact that I was not able to end myself to this day, having a partner in crime to help me row the boat along the torrent that is life would be highly appreciated.

Until we find some solution to this mess.
 
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ge0rge

ge0rge

the satanic mechanic
Jul 29, 2018
647
yeah, I think so. but I think being like this - like I am, like all of us here are, I guess - might be a strain on that person, and might eventually push them away.
 
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ayanonikki

ayanonikki

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Apr 7, 2019
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if i had a soulmate I would probably push them away until they don't want to be with me anymore
i get that. i've pushed away everyone in my life and i feel like such a bad person. but i don't think any of them were so right for me anyway... i think when we find someone we truly love we tend to see more of the positives in them than the negatives. and when we meet someone we love more of our positives shine through than our negatives. but that's what makes me question whether a person i love could fix who i am or if i'm just fkin broken... but you seem like a kind person with a lot of love to give, from what i can see. keep having hope :)
 
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Life_is_Dead

Life_is_Dead

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Isn't the whole concept of a soulmate someone that you can't push away though ?

No matter what you do you'll forever be on the same wavelength. Someone that shares the same view on life as you. Someone that thinks like you.

That's why a lot of people think they get along when they do not really. Or they force themselves to change in order to save the relationship.

It's astonishing how much people think they found the only and right person in their life when out of the billions of humans that ever lived on this planet, they really met maybe a thousand or even less in their whole life. And by "met", crossing paths with a pedestrian on the street doesn't count.

If we go by this logic, hundreds of thousands of people could be candidates to be your soulmate.

I think the vast majority of relationships are "good enough" to work. I don't know if soulmates exist, I like to think they do though.

It would be so much fun to have a friend that is so in sync with you that sometimes you don't even need to speak in order to share what you're thinking about.

I know some people would hate the fact of living with someone that has a similar personality. They like to be with a complete opposite. So they can argue from time to time. Get some action.

I don't know, if it works for them, why not. Not me though ^^. I hate conflict.
 
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JayZT

JayZT

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Jul 12, 2018
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Well one of the main reasons I need to go is because I'm so disconnected from everyone around me so I guess if I had someone who truly understood me then it would be good but I don't and I won't.
 
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
Probably not. It's been a long time since I have had a meaningful connection so I guess I cannot really know unless it happens but a relationship will not magically bring joy to my life. It may however offer me more distractions than I have now and real distractions are powerful. Honestly though a relationship seems like to much work i'd really just like to have a friend or two...
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I had a soul mate. I ruined my life by throwing them away and I hate myself so much for it. Lots of abuse and trauma happened after I left them and I'll never recover from it. But when I was with them I was happy. Ctb was not on my mind. So if only I could go back and undo the past....

People say "oh you will find someone again" but it's not that easy. You can't just replace a soul mate. I foolishly lost mine and I'm suffering for it.
 
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TiredHorse

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Nov 1, 2018
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I had a soul mate. I ruined my life by throwing them away and I hate myself so much for it. Lots of abuse and trauma happened after I left them and I'll never recover from it. But when I was with them I was happy. Ctb was not on my mind. So if only I could go back and undo the past....

People say "oh you will find someone again" but it's not that easy. You can't just replace a soul mate. I foolishly lost mine and I'm suffering for it.
I was about to write exactly this: I had my soulmate, and was happy, and then it all came crashing down. We destroyed it together --it was not solely me that shattered the magic mirror that was our life together-- but that does not mitigate my guilt for my own part or make my regret at the collapse any less.

We were very different, but the differences always complemented each other. For 24 years we were a team --a true partnership.

Now here I am, isolated, no chance of meeting anyone remotely close to what I had in her. "You will find someone new and better!" say the people in my life. I consider that chance infinitessimal.

If only I could go back and undo the past...
 
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Cold

Cold

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Aug 27, 2018
100
Yes.
 
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TheFinalCountdown

TheFinalCountdown

Student
Mar 25, 2019
136
I thought I had one once, but now she's gone. My soul's been gone since then too
 
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Alchemist

Alchemist

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Apr 3, 2019
709
Even if I had it, I would probably lose it or anything, so who knows. Most likely I already lost it years ago.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

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Aug 30, 2018
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While I don't believe in the idea of a true soul mate, the short answer is, yes, I would but only for the scope of the relationship and circumstances allowing. So a simple example would be that if I found a soulmate, then I'd make it my mission and duty to stay with said person until said person either passes (goes before I do), betrays me, or if my suffering is too great (like stage IV cancer or other severe disability that greatly hampers my life). Furthermore, it also depends on my circumstances at the time, whether other things are going ok in life or if things are still shit for the foreseeable future.
 
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EddieAllenPoe

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Mar 19, 2019
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I've pretty much given up on the illusion of romantic love. I'm even skeptical of the idea of putting all my eggs into one person. BUT... I have been in love before. I do know the value of relationships. I do know people who seem to be soulmates that have been around for several years. I know it's possible, so I'm not knocking it.

It's nothing new, but it's true... a lot of research confirms that people who are suicidal often have poor social connections. Isolation kills. I think that's true in my life too. I enjoy my "alone time", but I would probably be less suicidal if I had more meaninful relationships. I guess my answer to your original question is "Yes. Sort of."
 
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Skathon

Skathon

"...scarred underneath, and I'm falling..."
Oct 29, 2018
586
Ironically, my blood brother is already dead.
 
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xiaomingdie

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Apr 8, 2019
47
You are s kind girl, I wish you to find a soulmate
 
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ayanonikki

ayanonikki

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Isn't the whole concept of a soulmate someone that you can't push away though ?

No matter what you do you'll forever be on the same wavelength. Someone that shares the same view on life as you. Someone that thinks like you.

That's why a lot of people think they get along when they do not really. Or they force themselves to change in order to save the relationship.

It's astonishing how much people think they found the only and right person in their life when out of the billions of humans that ever lived on this planet, they really met maybe a thousand or even less in their whole life. And by "met", crossing paths with a pedestrian on the street doesn't count.

If we go by this logic, hundreds of thousands of people could be candidates to be your soulmate.

I think the vast majority of relationships are "good enough" to work. I don't know if soulmates exist, I like to think they do though.

It would be so much fun to have a friend that is so in sync with you that sometimes you don't even need to speak in order to share what you're thinking about.

I know some people would hate the fact of living with someone that has a similar personality. They like to be with a complete opposite. So they can argue from time to time. Get some action.

I don't know, if it works for them, why not. Not me though ^^. I hate conflict.

to me, a soulmate is something beyond logical understanding. i mean, it's in the name. the 'soul' is something beyond human comprehension, for the most part.

i have met a couple people i have regarded as 'soulmates', including my parents. they're not the same, they have things they dislike about the other person, but somehow they just are right for one another. they always have a laugh (they act more like a child than me sometimes) and they've been through each other's illnesses, losses and financial problems. yet when you ask them how they've been together so long and still manage to enjoy each other's company (and they spend A LOT of time together) they just say, "we've just stuck by one another." there's no reasoning, there's no long list of why they love each other - it's just that. like i said, soulmates seem to be something that happen to the lucky minority of us, but it's something beyond our understanding. it just feels right.

so i think what you say about people thinking they have found their soulmate when they have not is true. i think if people have too many nice things to say about one another, or if their relationship seems to be too good in the beginning, it seems almost too good to be true, and somehow you just get this feeling that it's going to fall apart. i think soulmates don't actually know they're soulmates for a long time, and they might even get off on the wrong footing when they first meet. but the relationship only seems to get better.

i agree with you when you mention how some people think their relationships are good enough for them. it's really unfortunate how we just have to deal with what we have because we can't see ourselves finding better, but i've found myself saying the same thing many times. i don't think we give ourselves enough confidence that there are people out there for us, and we just accept what we have. and when you get older and you've been knocked down so many times, it's even more difficult to have that hope.

i think a lot of us change throughout our lives and we therefore love and lose a lot of different people. i don't think this means that this person wasn't right for us, it just makes logical sense. we will have different people who are suited to us as we grow personally. the lucky minority are granted soulmates, and the majority of us will go through a series of people. i think that's okay too, it gives us a better life experience. but once again a lot of people desire this one person that they can remain connected to, and it gets tiring when you're older to keep losing people.

i think i would be okay too if i could find someone that was suited to me right now at this point in my life, even if i knew they might not be the right person for me again in a couple years.
 
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noonetoo

noonetoo

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Mar 7, 2019
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I guess what I have now, the person I'm with, is the closest I'll ever get to a soulmate. But I don't feel loved. I feel like a nuisance, like I'm the toxic one and he's better off without me. You can't force someone to love all the broken pieces of you, even if you shown them all.
 
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Life_is_Dead

Life_is_Dead

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to me, a soulmate is something beyond logical understanding. i mean, it's in the name. the 'soul' is something beyond human comprehension, for the most part.

i have met a couple people i have regarded as 'soulmates', including my parents. they're not the same, they have things they dislike about the other person, but somehow they just are right for one another. they always have a laugh (they act more like a child than me sometimes) and they've been through each other's illnesses, losses and financial problems. yet when you ask them how they've been together so long and still manage to enjoy each other's company (and they spend A LOT of time together) they just say, "we've just stuck by one another." there's no reasoning, there's no long list of why they love each other - it's just that. like i said, soulmates seem to be something that happen to the lucky minority of us, but it's something beyond our understanding. it just feels right.

so i think what you say about people thinking they have found their soulmate when they have not is true. i think if people have too many nice things to say about one another, or if their relationship seems to be too good in the beginning, it seems almost too good to be true, and somehow you just get this feeling that it's going to fall apart. i think soulmates don't actually know they're soulmates for a long time, and they might even get off on the wrong footing when they first meet. but the relationship only seems to get better.

i agree with you when you mention how some people think their relationships are good enough for them. it's really unfortunate how we just have to deal with what we have because we can't see ourselves finding better, but I've found myself saying the same thing many times. i don't think we give ourselves enough confidence that there are people out there for us, and we just accept what we have. and when you get older and you've been knocked down so many times, it's even more difficult to have that hope.

i think a lot of us change throughout our lives and we therefore love and lose a lot of different people. i don't think this means that this person wasn't right for us, it just makes logical sense. we will have different people who are suited to us as we grow personally. the lucky minority are granted soulmates, and the majority of us will go through a series of people. i think that's okay too, it gives us a better life experience. but once again a lot of people desire this one person that they can remain connected to, and it gets tiring when you're older to keep losing people.

i think i would be okay too if i could find someone that was suited to me right now at this point in my life, even if i knew they might not be the right person for me again in a couple years.

I understand. I'm not in other people minds so it's true that I can't speak for anyone than myself.
I did not consider the fact that people change throughout their lives. I don't know. I think I've never witnessed a happy relationship.
My parentes were far from soulmates. It was a disaster. And I probably inherited all this years of bs in the back of my mind somewhere.

Well I've never met anyone in my life with whom I felt something genuine. I tend to dislike the way of thinking of the vast majority of people on this planet.

Well, what can you do. =)
 
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Please_stop

Please_stop

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Apr 8, 2019
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Yes. If I could prevent it, I'd do anything in my power not to hurt them
 
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Divine Trinity

Divine Trinity

Pugna Vigil
Mar 20, 2019
310
The concept of romantic love is quite bullshit to be frank, it's not rational, realistic, healthy (for people or society), and so rigid in standards that even "succesful" relationships (when one of the people die) are dysfunctional and/or long declined satisfaction-wise unless someone died in first 3-5 years. People are also more miserable once they have kids.

Telling yourself that another person is "yours and no one else can 'have' them" is going to cause a lot of problems, and the only reason this structure has lasted so long is because women were/are (in certain regions) treated as dairy cows. Most of this comes from christianity, and the global genocide of indigenous cultures around the world, which often were centuries older.

Notice that when women recieve more education, fertility rates decline massively, marriage rates drop, occur later in life, and divorce rates increase. Why is that?

I'm no feminist, marriage is to a less extreme extent terrible for men too. And the dysfunction in this social dynamic, among other things, creates things like rape, prostitution, domestic violence, child abuse/neglect/trauma, psychiatric conditions, and so on. Don't even get me started on hyper-sexualization, dating, or whatever you call what's been trending for the last 3-4 decades.

Anyone defending or supporting the cultural notion of romantic love is ignorant, lying, and/or making money off of it. Then the population argue about it instead of solving real issues.

No I don't advocate polygamy, Saudi Arabia is not any better. People aren't property whether their child-parent, man-woman, or whatever else.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
I don't think it would. I used to think so but good songs don't last long. As selfish as it may sound id like large amounts of money more than a potential soulmate. I know that sooner or later i'm going ctb so i just want as little long term connection as possible. I used to live/thrive for other people's happiness .. not anymore.
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
340
I have a girlfriend for 1 year, she is amazing, and she knows my problems and how I feel, she has accepted all the darkness in me, and she loves all my details, and our relationship is great. It keeps me alive, it motivates me to live, even in times of depressive crises.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

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Dec 11, 2018
454
I honestly can't even imagine it anymore. Soul mates, true love etc. None of it. I'm too thoroughly fucked up to be wanted by anybody.
 
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agreement

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Mar 26, 2018
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I'd change my mind if I had a soul :wink:
 
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SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
340
I honestly can't even imagine it anymore. Soul mates, true love etc. None of it. I'm too thoroughly fucked up to be wanted by anybody.
I was and still I'm fucked, and still somebody wanted me. There will always be someone who will love you as you are;
 
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