when i kill myself i wanna have shrooms and listen to my playlist because it gives me a lot of clarity and i want to do that in case it makes me change my mind. but let me know if that would fuck it up and if that's a bad idea to do beforehand
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aRose
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Maybe do it a few days before? I don't think it would chemically alter much but definitely doesn't seem like a good idea to do it right before or during.
I did shrooms recently thinking it would change my mind or open my eyes - but it just solidified my goal of CBT. I spent most of the night cuddling my gun and getting used to the idea of shooting myself while recording trauma dumps of all the bad things that have led me here.
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Set and Setting influences the effect of shrooms, sorry u had a bad experience on shrooms. Can u describe the set and setting (maybe we can find improvements to it)?I think it would increase the likelihood of vomiting, and possibly increase the risk of calling for help. If you can get some benzos, that should be much better.
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EmptyBottle
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aRose
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lol I just realized I typed CBT instead of CTB
I also always read SI as "suicidal ideation" not survival instinct ooops
It did show me how deeply depressed I really am. I haven't done LSD in like 8 years and shrooms in like 10 and I was like "oh, the blanket is swirling… whatever" absolutely no enthusiasm was available even when high af
For some reason the gun being cold bothered me. I wanted to make it warm so i snuggled it til it matches my body temp
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