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- Aug 18, 2020
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For all the people who are now on the edge of a mental breakdown: You don't have to be scared I won't leave this website. I am addicted to this website like a good old meth junkie.
But I have asked me this question. Maybe you also have asked you this question to yourself. Would the people on SS miss me if I was not here anymore. This question might have different answers for different people(?) and it depends on why they quit this website. If someone insults other people it is obvious the community won't appreciate such a behavior.
I just can say I miss Persephone a lot. She was so friendly to me. She was so patient and never judging towards myself. I am really sad that she left the website. But it probably was the best for her mental health as far as I can judge. This is why I fully support her decision.
If I left it would be absolutely no comparison with Persephone when she left. I am way too narcissistic, whiny, self-absorbed even when I criticize myself like right now.
But I think some people might be sad if I was not here anymore. Not many but some.
I think the fact that this is a suicide forum contributes to the familiarization with losses. I think for me the separation would be way more difficult than for the people who remain in this forum. By far!
I have the feeling this thread also seems to a little bit self-absorbed. I am thinking about myself despite the fact others quitted this forum for real. I am not sure how these people cope without the support of such an online forum. I ask myself if they search for another online community. I am member now for such a long time I can't imagine my life without this forum. I barely can remember the time without it. I can remember the loneliness was soul-crushing for me. The feeling of alienation was way worse to that time. At least when I am here I am feeling less lonely. Not being all alone with my thoughts and I see other people with similar chronic (severe) suicidality to who I can relate which comforts for me.
To the answer of the question from the title. I don't think an answer is really that important. I am still fighting and this website accompanies during this hardship which I call my life. I hope our paths won't disconnect. But there has happened more insane stuff during the last months with this forum. I feel comforted that no matter how suicidal I get this website won't judge me for that. And that I don't have to face negative stereotypes or hurtful replies for that.
Do you ever had a similar question in mind?
But I have asked me this question. Maybe you also have asked you this question to yourself. Would the people on SS miss me if I was not here anymore. This question might have different answers for different people(?) and it depends on why they quit this website. If someone insults other people it is obvious the community won't appreciate such a behavior.
I just can say I miss Persephone a lot. She was so friendly to me. She was so patient and never judging towards myself. I am really sad that she left the website. But it probably was the best for her mental health as far as I can judge. This is why I fully support her decision.
If I left it would be absolutely no comparison with Persephone when she left. I am way too narcissistic, whiny, self-absorbed even when I criticize myself like right now.
But I think some people might be sad if I was not here anymore. Not many but some.
I think the fact that this is a suicide forum contributes to the familiarization with losses. I think for me the separation would be way more difficult than for the people who remain in this forum. By far!
I have the feeling this thread also seems to a little bit self-absorbed. I am thinking about myself despite the fact others quitted this forum for real. I am not sure how these people cope without the support of such an online forum. I ask myself if they search for another online community. I am member now for such a long time I can't imagine my life without this forum. I barely can remember the time without it. I can remember the loneliness was soul-crushing for me. The feeling of alienation was way worse to that time. At least when I am here I am feeling less lonely. Not being all alone with my thoughts and I see other people with similar chronic (severe) suicidality to who I can relate which comforts for me.
To the answer of the question from the title. I don't think an answer is really that important. I am still fighting and this website accompanies during this hardship which I call my life. I hope our paths won't disconnect. But there has happened more insane stuff during the last months with this forum. I feel comforted that no matter how suicidal I get this website won't judge me for that. And that I don't have to face negative stereotypes or hurtful replies for that.
Do you ever had a similar question in mind?
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