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THCTemplar

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I am wondering if it appeals to anyone else to ctb with a member of the opposite sex while holding each other? It's the aloneness...the emptiness at the end when trying to execute....
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
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No.
 
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Righttodie

Righttodie

Maybe in another life
Apr 10, 2019
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Not anyone will do.

Someone I love, yes.
But they won't ever get to know what happened to me probably. Anything would be just them guessing.

But yes. Makes death less of a morbid act, adds some peace to have someone. I can understand where you are coming from
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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May 31, 2018
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I used to fantasize about this looooong ago. I thought it would feel ... ameliorative to hold and be held at the end. But if I could have arranged such a thing I might have had a chance at deluding myself about (my) life's value. Some of us are just too, um, unconventional in all the ways that matter for another human being to want to get close to. OP, here's hoping you get it, if that's what you want.
 
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THCTemplar

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Its just the pain of leaving my wife and child behind. I definitely don't want them to come with me I'm just saying it's hard to leave them. Having someone else there would make it easier by dulling that feeling.
 
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Haku

Walking ThePathOfSorrow, destination Denebokshiri
Oct 12, 2019
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Yes, but it's not going to happen for me, had the same idea as @Righttodie. So I guess I'm going at it alone.... just like I always do
 
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THCTemplar

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Yes, but it's not going to happen for me, had the same idea as @Righttodie. So I guess I'm going at it alone.... just like I always do
Me too.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

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Its just the pain of leaving my wife and child behind. I definitely don't want them to come with me I'm just saying it's hard to leave them. Having someone else there would make it easier by dulling that feeling.


When I was in school, I rented a nice hotel suite in San Francisco to throw a goodbye party. I paid for my "best friend" to fly out to have one last good laugh... Then HIS friend emailed me, telling me I was selfish b/c my friend could be prosecuted after my death. She actually cursed me out for being ... selfish in wanting to be surrounded by people I cared for before I left--even though they'd have had nothing to do with my suicide. That was the last time I tried to "say goodbye." So long as our backwards, morally hypocritical cultures criminalize (by proxy) suicide, we're filthy monsters the rest of society has to be protected from. :/
 
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ImsooDone1N

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Nov 22, 2018
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I think, in theory having someone else with you when your dying would certainly make it less lonely. But there are too many issues to make it practical. However I just see it as having compassionate company with you till the end. I don't necessarily see why it would have to be a "member of the opposite sex". But I can understand not wanting to be alone at the end.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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I stupidly offered to hold someone's hand while they CTB but it's a stupid idea. If you got caught you'd be arrested for assisting a suicide.
 
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Ln42

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Jun 13, 2018
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I would love it if someone could be with me at the end, I don't want to be alone.
Rachel74 you weren't stupid, you are a kind person.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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Maybe one day professional cuddlers will transcend to that level(?)



A couple years ago I read an online article BY cuddlers working with a NY (US) company--males and females. They all, anonymously, said some clients (the ones who really needed cuddling therapy) "disgust[ed]" them. But they waxed enthusiastically about getting assigned to a hot person. Just my two cents, but I think just as doctors and nurses can abuse those who most need help (there's hard statistical evidence that presenting at a hospital without a support person is an independent risk factor for WORSE medical treatment and worse health outcomes--all other variables held the same...), professional escorts and cuddlers, etc., are likely to be typical judgmental humans who want to be around the "right" kind of people... Russell wrote, "Those who most need friendship are least likely to acquire it." I think he was right. :-/
Maybe one day professional cuddlers will transcend to that level(?)



A couple years ago I read an online article BY cuddlers working with a NY (US) company--males and females. They all, anonymously, said some clients (the ones who really needed cuddling therapy) "disgust[ed]" them. But they waxed enthusiastically about getting assigned to a hot person. Just my two cents, but I think just as doctors and nurses can abuse those who most need help (there's hard statistical evidence that presenting at a hospital without a support person is an independent risk factor for WORSE medical treatment and worse health outcomes--all other variables held the same...), professional escorts and cuddlers, etc., are likely to be typical judgmental humans who want to be around the "right" kind of people... Russell wrote, "Those who most need friendship are least likely to acquire it." I think he was right. :-/
 
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takeyourshotfunboy

takeyourshotfunboy

Smile...
Oct 11, 2019
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The Columbine shooters shot themselves together. They were so close to each other that their bodies were almost touching.
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

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Aug 19, 2019
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I might attempt to give a hug to my ex-partner after I've taken the last dose of meto. Not exactly the same thing, but.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
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Most likely alone, it is what it is❤️
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

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Sep 14, 2019
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I would love for someone to be with me, not just for emotional support but to make sure I'm actually dead! And if I'm not, put a bad over my head or something. I told my friend who killed herself three years ago that if she was ready I would go with her but she never let me know. Thanks a lot!!!! Haha. But yes it would be wonderful to have someone there with me for comfort.
But would I want to hold someone else? I don't know about that. Obviously if it was someone extremely close to me I'd do it. I don't think anyone should die alone.
 
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