I asked my therapist how many of her patients had ctb (I met her in intensive outpatient therapy at a hospital, then we switched to one-on-one sessions, which she started last year as a part-time thing she's trying to make full-time). She looked me and said, "None. And you're not going to be the first." There was real emotion in her voice; even though it happened two/three months ago, I still think about it.