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Please never use a .22 for suicide. Ever.
fair point, but my main reason for worrying about the mess is mostly for my surviving friends and some relatives. i guess i just don't want them to picture the aftermath of a shotgun blast to the face when they think about me. plus it'd be really yucky, especially compared to a .22. but this makes sense too
I understand, but, exactly, what is the end game here? A .22 is just not going to get the job done, or, at the very least, has a low likelihood of success. Maybe you could arrange it through a delayed message to the police so that they are the ones who find you first? I think when people are actually at their rock-bottom, lowest point and ready to CTB, the only concern is on oneself, and there is no concern regarding how others might find you or what it will do to them. This is the point where one's own best interest comes before all else. Yes, it is selfish, and it has to be, but suicide is only about you, and that is how it should be.
I personally wouldn't use a 22. It's a very small round and you could survive. But I definitely understand your thoughts regarding a shotgun. I thought of using a shotgun. But they have a strong recoil and the one I had was impossible for me to fire if aiming for my head because my arms weren't long enough. I don't know why gun shooting myself in the head freaks me out. I'd much rather someone else do it to me but that's not an option. I'm leaning towards medication overdose and hanging or medication overdose and a gun. I have a handgun and a rifle with explosive ammo. I don't think I'd survive the combination.
May I ask where you are planning on doing it? Do you live alone? I'm currently living with family and trying to figure out the best location. I don't think I will have an opportunity to do something that loud while home alone. I'm leaning towards my car but I was hoping my family could sell my car and keep the money. I don't want it to be destroyed.
What about a 9mm with critical defense ammunition or a rifle?
i do live alone, and no one really ever comes over (thank god lol). not sure if neighbors would hear the shot though. i'd rather first responders be the first ones to, y'know, respond. my main concern is to not leave too much of a gory mess that might make the grieving process more difficult or morbid for my friends and family. maybe i should look into non-gun related methods?
Where is the best place to aim? I've seen people shoot themselves in the side of the head and the mouth and they were successful. I worry about trying the side of the head as I have small hands and worry about the recoil and missing.
That's good that you live alone. Most neighbors will hear the gunshot unless you live out in the country and they aren't close by. Even if I could get a moment when I was home alone to ctb with my gun I know the neighbors would hear it and call the police. I don't want that because I don't want medical attention in case I don't die immediately. I'm currently leaning towards prescription medication overdose and partial hanging or prescription medication overdose and firearm in my car in a remote area. I do worry about my family members being the ones who would find me. My medication isn't enough to kill me so that's why I was trying to combat it with another method.
How do you aim for the brain stem? Shoot through your mouth?
It's possible you could be successful that way. I have heard that some people tear off the bag once they are unconscious though.
