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ifihadnever

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Sep 20, 2025
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Hi, Apologies for the repeated posts about my hanging method. I have read the resources and had some helpful responses from Jesibel, Wearewinning and others (thank you).....I don't know if you are able to help further if I show you and explain my set up?

I have been practising my set up, as mentioned in previous posts im looking for full suspension but the highest point in my house (my chosen place) is just 1.5 foot above me. When I wrote my last post I didn't account for the fact that my head wouldn't be at that mark, as didn't take the rope into account. I'm sounding like a broken record so I apologise but obviously would not want this method to go wrong and if people feel it's unlikely to succeed or turn into a partial I'd appreciate their thoughts (I'm avoiding a partial as would just rather gravity take its course).

I'll attach pictures - im unsure if I am overthinking things or being rightly cautious. So the first picture is of a loose set up with a overhand knot (I think its callled) and noose with stopper - here I would tie overhand knot first and put my head in BUT after practising lightly I think the noose with drop too far- you can't see from the pictures but it does drop. I think this may be too risky? unsure?

Next picture, I ties the noose with stopper around my neck first and then tied a bowline knot (will put a stopper on but haven't in the picture). There will be less of a drop but still worried too much (not much more than a foot to play with i imagine so not ideal....). To make things more difficult i suffer with brain injury & I'm unable to learn a new task (like tieing a knot from memory....I could do it 200x but still would not learn) so I have to put my phone on the boxes and watch and video and keep pausing and watching what I'm doing. It is manageable but slow going. I would then have to turn, ensure the knot is at the back of my neck and positioned correctly and drop. What I'm standing on would be stable so I wouldn't worry about balance but it's not an ideal situation I appreciate. So I don't know if the photos help. I think I was being totally unrealiatic then it I would rather know?

I do have SN as a back up method but would perfer a full suspension just to get it done with. But obviously don't want to end up with more damage than I already have. I wondered what people's thoughts were, would really appreciate any?

I feel like I'm asking the same advice so I do apologise. I think probably to avoid dropping so much I will have to tie the rope to my neck first, tie to point, turn and drop but still a little worried. The videos I've watched people have really long ropes and as you can see my point isn't massive far of the ceiling. So unsure if I'm overthinking but also not something I want to not think or understand.

Im also 5'6 and top of point is 'near' 7ft but take into account my head isn't at 7ft....so could he nearer 6.5 foot for example. I worried my want for this to work could be clouding my judgement of it not working (combined with poor brain functioning). Apologies, for the ramble and repeated questions .

Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you so much in advance.
 

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ifihadnever

Student
Sep 20, 2025
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Bit of a sheepish bump.....Any thoughts? too risky? would SN be a better route....?

Really would appreciate any help....
 
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itsgone2

Wizard
Sep 21, 2025
637
Hello. Was going to say that I don't think I'd be able to tie the anchor knot after noose is on. Seems difficult. I want to fsh but also afraid to. I guess failure is part of life that. But just the act in general. It's brutal.
Idk I'm afraid this isn't high enough, but people had made do with lower and partial so idk on that one
 
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ifihadnever

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Sep 20, 2025
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Hello. Was going to say that I don't think I'd be able to tie the anchor knot after noose is on. Seems difficult. I want to fsh but also afraid to. I guess failure is part of life that. But just the act in general. It's brutal.
Idk I'm afraid this isn't high enough, but people had made do with lower and partial so idk on that one
I really appreciate your response. I have managed to tie the anchor knot after the noose around my neck in practice, (not the easiest mind). You think it's not high enough? That has been my worry...I've been trying to convince myself it is and I think the want to has clouded my judgement. Just becuase I want it to work...doesn't mean the set up is right. This is frustrating but I'd rather know than cause myself more damage.

I doubt I would succeeded at a partial. And I dont want a failure, I don't have time for a failure.

I do have SN so that might have to be the way to try then.

I really wanted the hanging to work but I can see what you mean about the height.

I appreciate your feedback. Thank you
 
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itsgone2

Wizard
Sep 21, 2025
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I really wanted the hanging to work but I can see what you mean about the height.
It's hard to say for sure. If you're able to tie it that way, that's impressive. I can't do that.
Idk I'm worried on height for mine too. When it's close like this it's hard to know.
Are you more scared of SN? I just can't seem to do fsh. Yet anyway.
 
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ifihadnever

Student
Sep 20, 2025
112
It's hard to say for sure. If you're able to tie it that way, that's impressive. I can't do that.
Idk I'm worried on height for mine too. When it's close like this it's hard to know.
Are you more scared of SN? I just can't seem to do fsh. Yet anyway.
I think I'm at the stage where I just want it over. FSH would be over quickly and no going back if done right. My worry with SN is i have a benzo dependency and take very high doses each day & benzo no longer have any effect, I'm just stuck on them so that could be problematic, so i wont get the same benzo benefits that others with no tolerance will get. Also, I do have meto but have problems with keeping food down at the moment and GI problems so even with meto I'm probably at high risk of vomiting. So feel the SN method for me could be more likely to fail than the avergae person. Saying that, if I vomit then it doesn't seem there will be much damage done from SN. So, might not be too much to lose. If I mess up a FSH, I'm a bit screwed!

I will be scared. But I'm more scared to continue as I am. I think I could do it, but wanted it to be in the house. I'm not sure how I'd manage to hang myself from a tree at night with a torch (that has to be harder than werid method). Plus I don't want to ruin some poor souls life when they find me on a morning walk.

I guess I have the SN. I could try and hope for the best...it just wasn't my preferred method. but I do understand why it would be other people's. It was mine at first but then I thought, I just want this over and done with and moved to FSH....but if my height just isnt enough i might have to accept it. I kinda wonder what would happen if I tried.....but that could be complete stupidity!
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I will be scared. But I'm more scared to continue as I am. I think I could do it, but wanted it to be in the house. I'm not sure how I'd manage to hang myself from a tree at night with a torch (that has to be harder than werid method). Plus I don't want to ruin some poor souls life when they find me on a morning walk.
Yes. Inside is better. I have a setup inside. I'd like to do it tonight. It's not ideal but any night works. But I don't. Sucks.
 
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ifihadnever

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Sep 20, 2025
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Yes. Inside is better. I have a setup inside. I'd like to do it tonight. It's not ideal but any night works. But I don't. Sucks.
Yes, it's also winter here and horrible cold. but that radiator is my highest point indoors. I feel gutted. I'll have a think overnight.

Maybe, it's not your time to go yet if you are worried? it's not my place to say. But I think sometimes we just know....
 
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