Tell me about it... The method isn't really important. In my case it was nitrogen, several attempts. I was almost there, I could feel I was beginning to drift away, but with my last effort I took the bag off. I couldn't stand up, I was coughing up blood. I was so angry at myself, because I knew that if I waited probably 5 more seconds, then I'd be done.
Maybe dying with a plastic bag on my head was too much for my psyche to handle. It was as though something was telling me "this can't happen this way, not like this". I had a perfectly good setup, with high probability of success. What do I do instead? I've been swallowing 10 glycyrrhizin pills every morning, hoping that one day my heart will give up, especially that I'd already had very high BP. Trying ti cheat my SI that 'm not atually killing myself, I'm just helping my body die on its own.If it doesn't, I'll probably try to OD on some meds.
You know what's funny? I also have SN at home but somehow I don't like this method either. I find it somehow repulsive, I can't explain why. If I were to choose my death, it would be from my heart gradually getting weaker. Blood pressure and pulse steadily falling, could be for hours, I don't mind, until the heart can no longer take it. That's how the love of my life died. I want to know what it feels like.
By the way, if anyone has any idea how to make my wish come true, please PM me.