It's probably my number one reason. For the last two years, I had the most lenient work environment imaginable. The work itself maybe took up 10 percent of the time I was on the job, I worked with a dude I liked and was able to read, relax, sit in cafes and eat breakfast, all while being paid.
Now I've been unemployed for a little over five months.
The two jobs I had before that (warehouse and construction) all led me to a total breakdown and I only managed to stay on the job with through drinking myself into a coma at night.
Working a full-time job, where I actually need to be attentive, like driving a forklift or filling up shelves – I simply cannot imagine myself in this situation anymore. I'm running out of money now and for the last few months didn't even have enough motivation to look for a menial job or file for unemployment.
My (official) education level is okay, I have the equivalent of a good high school degree, which would've allowed me to go to college. I educated myself instead, but acquired no useful skills that would benefit me on the job market –
I'm horrible at politics and don't want to deal with bullshit; I want my work to be meaningful or at least to be ethically decent, not some job where I scam people or sell them useless bullshit – sometimes I wondered whether I am somewhere on the spectrum, because I am really allergic to BS and office politics.
Managers never liked me, because I can't help myself but speak my mind on matters managerial, and they usually have ego problems and see it as a personal attack when you point out some obvious inefficiency (apes); let's say, I was not raised to mindlessly take orders: my father didn't beat me up enough for that.