I always feel sick when people (especially my parents) ask me "what do you want to do after school". I always say "I don't know yet" but in my head I'm like "I don't wanna slave away my life, I wanna be dead". I just hope I will indeed be dead before I finish school because school is already a horrible hellhole and having a job will probably be even worse. I don't want to spend all my life working a meaningless, exhausting job which pays shitty and makes me feel even more suicidal. So yeah, fuck you society, I won't support and perpetuate you with my labour power.
I know right I have been asked that question over half a dozen times in the last couple of month and dropping out of school only made people ask more.
Many people simply cannot work 9 hrs of stress - commute hour + to and from job and manage their depression/anxiety/pain etc.
I don't see the point in spending most of my waking hours at work for the next several decades. Then by the time I'm done, I'll be old. And when I'm not at work, there will be bills to pay, errands to run, etc. And I'll be lucky to get one or two weeks off each year. If I don't enjoy life already, why would I enjoy doing all of this?
I have known for years that I would never want to work 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week for the next 40 years till retirement because that isn´t life. I have said this before but I will say it again.
When I was 18 I was an apprentice in a butchers shop for only 1½ month before I had a mental breakdown (went down hard with depression) I had depression since I was 14 but getting up at 5am every morning or earlier, turning in at work at 6am working 10 hours till it was 6pm I quickly realized within the first week that I have to do this every day 5 days a week for the next 40 years or I could get another mundane boring job to slave away so I could have my 2 days off in the weekend. When I worked as a butchers apprentice and only had those 2 days off in the weekend that didn´t even give me enough time to relax and regenerate the mental energy to go back to work that is why I went down HARD!
I also could workout back then before my back injury so I would come home to a prepared meal since I lived home back then and I would eat immediately when got in the door and got my shoes off after that straight to the gym to workout, go home take a shower, eat, go to bed and repeat I literally didn´t have as much as an hour a day to relax
ONLY the 2 days off in the weekend so how in the hell can people do this shit and still be able to enjoy "life" when they only have 2 days of life a week and in those two days you wouldn´t even be able to relax properly.
As one of you said people might call us lazy so what if I am? I used to work 2½ years as a dishwasher 16-20 hours a week sometimes along with school when I was 16-18 but a full time job I don´t have any passion for? FUCK NO! A lot of people like what they do an take pride in it and have colleagues they are excited to see each day but I don´t fall into that category I just want to have money so I can live life and people will say "find something you like" Look I have been looking for that since I was 15 I am 24 now and there is nothing I have such a passion from that I can live off today.
So work 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week all year to have a few weeks off to regenerate the energy to do it all over again for 40 years nope not for me I´d rather be dead..
You're right this is very satisfying.
