words of encouragement

[anelakapu]

im last minute carrying out this ratchet method, words of encouragement would help. anything. even just ..just anything.

 

[anelakapu]

i dont want an audience to my death, i just need...idk i got to this hotel at 5pm and now its 1am and nothing good is waiting for me in the morning, i cant let my mind get to me, this is a bit selfish i guess? i'm sorry. thanks for reading. is that annoying? i cant talk to anyone anymore. i dont know anymore. i just have to die. maybe this shouldnt be on main forum , im still posting according to the reddit one

 

[gingerplum]

You sound like maybe you're not sure about this? I will support you regardless, even hold your virtual hand during, I just want for you to be at peace with your decision.

 

[nzdarkshark]

I hope you find peace whichever way you go - take deep breaths if you need to. If you need to rethink things it's ok - don't push yourself too hard if you're not ready.

Best wishes whichever way you choose <3.

 

[anelakapu]

thank you so much. i know i have nothing to look forward to or even straight at in life and im so close to passing out, but im just scared of waking up .

 

[gingerplum]

I'm here with you.

 

[anelakapu]

i planned for yesterday but got my paydays mixed up so rushed and did it today, dumped 250 on a hotel because theyre so expensive here, and i cant live through christmas, everything in my life is just... not good. it's rotted away. i didnt show up to my job , that i was already late to once and called off before that ive only been at for a few weeks. so i dont have it anymore if i live to see the sun which is not. i cant do that. i always take too long. no more worrying. i cant. i just need to Sleep. I'll try now. Thank you for being here

 

[gingerplum]

Of course. Try to sleep, and please don't panic about losing a job. You can overcome that if you want to.

 

[nzdarkshark]

We are here for you.

 

[anelakapu]

for anything i do. ill never be ready. i just have to remember that everything im afraid of involves being alive. im going to tighten...

 

[gingerplum]

I understand. Here for you.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

It's okay. It's your choice whether or bot you do it. We cannot encourage you but we can support your choice. We're here for you if you need.

 

[SiArc]

May you find your peace.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I hope you find peace soon but don't feel bad or "guilty" if you decide to back out and carry on living.

 

[gingerplum]

Are you still there?

 

[anelakapu]

im not doing it tonight. i dont have a reason other than that. im scared, i dont know. my life is only getting harder. maybe i take too long and exhaust myself. i try to think my way through but there's no thinking in death, only doing. my life is so bad, its shameful that i continue to live it. anyone else would have killed themselves a long time ago. thank you for keeping me company, it really means alot.

 

[gingerplum]

I'm happy to be here. My life is full of difficulty and shame as well; we all understand wanting the pain to end.

 

[therhydler]

Hey, if you need to talk feel free to PM me any time

 

[MsM3talGamer]

im not doing it tonight. i dont have a reason other than that. im scared, i dont know. my life is only getting harder. maybe i take too long and exhaust myself. i try to think my way through but there's no thinking in death, only doing. my life is so bad, its shameful that i continue to live it. anyone else would have killed themselves a long time ago. thank you for keeping me company, it really means alot.

We're all here for you. Feel free to chat or vent any time.

 

[Threads]

We don't allow encouraging of any sort of act on this forum.

Users can be supportive and give advice.

 

[Jodes]

im not doing it tonight. i dont have a reason other than that. im scared, i dont know. my life is only getting harder. maybe i take too long and exhaust myself. i try to think my way through but there's no thinking in death, only doing. my life is so bad, its shameful that i continue to live it. anyone else would have killed themselves a long time ago. thank you for keeping me company, it really means alot.

You sound in unbearable pain. I'm glad we can be here to help you in any way