With parents

[MidnightDream]

I felt quite unstable this week, so I impulsively booked a flight to visit my parents. I'm there now, and thankfully was able to renew my medication here, but I don't feel better. If anything, I just feel guilty. I don't think my parents would forgive me for ctb. They've never understood mental health, but they're starting to try, discussing my medication without making a face now.. which is progress. I want to drop it into conversation.. guage how they'd react if I ctbd, but I don't know how. Maybe I shouldn't say anything, maybe I should just do it. They live next to a train station, should I just..? Would they blame themselves? I couldn't lie on the tracks... but I could certainly throw myself in front.

 

[Tory123]

Would they blame themselves?

Yeah probably, to some extent its inevitable, but i think doing it during a visit to them would but more salt in the wound.

Dropping it into conversation might lessen the blow if the date comes, though that depends on how worrisome they are.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't believe that people should feel guilty for leaving behind parents as after all they were the ones who selfishly and unfairly brought us into this horrific world in the first place, and are the real reason as to why we suffer. Suicide is a personal decision after all which can only be made by the individual and nobody should have to stay here a second longer than they wish to. And anyway, losing people is just a part of life, we all have to die someday and if people don't want to deal with loss then they shouldn't bring life here in the first place.