
Misery99
Student
- May 12, 2020
- 164
There was a guy who I had known online since 4 years.He was the one who hit me up and showed interest in me for a relationship.I thought he really loved me and I believed in him. But after a year he found someone new and left me.Even if he left me for someone else I never blamed him or said anything harsh to him. I dealt with all the pain alone. We only met in real life once but all I was able to do was hold his hand for a little time since my family didn't allow to meet him alone. He said that he wanted to kiss me and he would meet me again but I guess he changed his mind? He doesn't chat or pick up phone when I tried to call or message him. I stopped messaging him since a month ago when I realized that he wasn't interested to reply to my messages but today I wanted to wish him since it's his birthday.Am I ugly and so unlikable that he simply blocked me when all I wanted to do was wish him a happy birthday? I feel so devastated and this is just one of the many reasons which proves that being dead is better for me than living in this pain. In my whole life people only liked me if they can get some help from me. Everybody mistreated me and ignored me. I'm so unlucky and unlikable. I want to escape from this life and this pain. Tears are in my eyes as I'm typing this because I can't believe that a person whom I loved from whole my heart once simply blocked my contact when I wished him a happy birthday.