Venting wish i could tell everyone around me to

[spring vainglory]

die. all of you.

i just want to tell everyone that i hate them. i hate them all and i want them to die. everyone with life better than mine i just want them to die. i want them to shut up!! shut up about your life!!! shut up and go explode!!

none of them know true suffering. none of them care of my suffering. i hate them!!!!! nobody sees me!!!! even when i cry out no one cares!!!! i hate you all!!!
no one understands this agony!!!! DIE ALREADY!!! EXPLODE INTO ONE MILLION PIECES!!! I WISH YOUR HAPPY LIFE WOULD END!!!

 

[Agon321]

That's my plan, if it makes you feel any better ;).

Well, I can't cleanse the planet of other people, but at least I can destroy myself.

 

[Saturn_]

This is nearly exactly how I feel. It's so hard not to feel resentment for the healthy people who love to rub their healthy lives in your face 24/7, and paint you as someone who must constantly be seeking therapy and protecting others from yourself as they play and frolic carefree. It hurts so much.

 

[spring vainglory]

That's my plan, if it makes you feel any better ;).

Well, I can't cleanse the planet of other people, but at least I can destroy myself.

to be honest, learning you were successful would make me feel better (its nice to hear that someone was able to escape the agony)
but hearing that you're planning on it doesn't it means you're still here suffering too. but thats still better than you being one of those content people i hate so much.... hah

This is nearly exactly how I feel. It's so hard not to feel resentment for the healthy people who love to rub their healthy lives in your face 24/7, and paint you as someone who must constantly be seeking therapy and protecting others from yourself as they play and frolic carefree. It hurts so much.

exactly!!! like im RIGHT HERE NEXT TO YOU SUFFERING but they give me as much attention and help as they give the people who are seas away being torn apart by colonialism!!!
and im SO TIRED OF BEING FORCED TO BE BETTER!! why do i have to do all the work on my own while you get to play around in hawaii????

 

[Agon321]

to be honest, learning you were successful would make me feel better (its nice to hear that someone was able to escape the agony)
but hearing that you're planning on it doesn't it means you're still here suffering too. but thats still better than you being one of those content people i hate so much.... hah

exactly!!! like im RIGHT HERE NEXT TO YOU SUFFERING but they give me as much attention and help as they give the people who are seas away being torn apart by colonialism!!!

Don't worry, it's not that bad.
Of course it's bad, but it could have been much worse.
If I'm still walking this planet, it means I'm not desperate enough to date death yet.
But this moment is fast approaching.

Of course I understand your perspective, but I have a slightly different approach.

 

[lost_ange2211]

I do not see the point in wanting everyone with a better life to die? Just imagine it happens, then you sit there with all other people who have similar circumstances or worse around you. Won't change a thing. You still have your miserable life and it won't get better from erasing everyone else. Maybe then you feel even guilty as you are more confronted with the people who have it worse than you?

I mean there might be some people in your life who had done you wrong/bad, made your suffering worse and who you hate but just hating everyone who apparently has it better than you, although you do not know them? No. That's unreasonable imo.

 

[smvrtsa]

so relatable tbh. in fact sometimes i think a large factor in my suicidality is spite LOL like the world pisses me off so much with how disgusting and selfish it is by design that i feel like they almost… don't deserve my existence and i would be glad to traumatize them.

 

[ctbcat]

hahahaha i feel very similar

the people in my life know i'm suffering, but instead of compassion it's always about how much of a liability i am, how much i make it hard for others, et cetera... i repeat the same thing over and over, that i know, i know, i know i'm a problem, and if it's too hard just give up, give up, give up... they don't listen. if you can't give up on me then just die. just die and burden me a little less, burden yourself a little less. that's what i think.

human life is so fragile & yet so stubborn. sorry i'm rambling

 

[spring vainglory]

so relatable tbh. in fact sometimes i think a large factor in my suicidality is spite LOL like the world pisses me off so much with how disgusting and selfish it is by design that i feel like they almost… don't deserve my existence and i would be glad to traumatize them.

yeah, i think mine mostly stems from envy. i was just born with shit life syndrome, and everyone else around me may have some hardships and unpleasantries but they have so much that i dont. don't even get me started on people with normal lives who like their parents....
i didnt do ANYTHING to deserve a life this horrible while they didn't do anything to deserve a life so great. its unfair.
i would love to traumatize all of them with my suicide, but then i wonder if anyone would even care. they would just go on living their easy little lives

hahahaha i feel very similar

the people in my life know i'm suffering, but instead of compassion it's always about how much of a liability i am, how much i make it hard for others, et cetera... i repeat the same thing over and over, that i know, i know, i know i'm a problem, and if it's too hard just give up, give up, give up... they don't listen. if you can't give up on me then just die. just die and burden me a little less, burden yourself a little less. that's what i think.

human life is so fragile & yet so stubborn. sorry i'm rambling

this. exactly this. this is the experience.

I do not see the point in wanting everyone with a better life to die? Just imagine it happens, then you sit there with all other people who have similar circumstances or worse around you. Won't change a thing. You still have your miserable life and it won't get better from erasing everyone else. Maybe then you feel even guilty as you are more confronted with the people who have it worse than you?

I mean there might be some people in your life who had done you wrong/bad, made your suffering worse and who you hate but just hating everyone who apparently has it better than you, although you do not know them? No. That's unreasonable imo.

my suicidality comes from envy though, so if no one else has a better life than me id probably be a lot more content. then i wouldn't be the one with a horrible life, with shit life syndrome, while others get to frolic around carefree. maybe if life was awful for everyone there'd be more helping of each other where we could. take how supportive and empathetic everyone is on this site for example. because people with good lives dont help anyway, all they do is guilt trip or mind their own business, whats the point of them being alive.