lululoo

lululoo

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Dec 15, 2018
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I have enough saved to last me a little while. I just want to spend some time watching tv, reading, sleeping, and eating. Slowly get more depressed, fatter, and gather my courage and then CTB. Ignore everyone. Just rest and live free of responsibility for awhile before I go. Could be a few weeks, or maybe a few months.

Why don't I? Because I am chicken and too concerned with what people think. I'm worried I wouldn't go through ctb and then I'd be screwed. Or even if I did, I'd struggle with all the judgement I'd get from coworkers and friends and family for quitting without another job. Judgment destroys me. I'm pretty lame.

Sorry if this is obnoxious. Maybe I sound lucky that I have a financial cushion. But I will add it's not very big and also I have a chronic illness and suck at my job so I feel like this is not sustainable so at some point I will be unemployed and destitute.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

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I've quit jobs without having another one lined up and always got another one but my prior field (public accounting) has a dearth of applicants so this worked in my favor.

Can you quit with some bullshit reason like you have money saved and wanted to travel for a few months before you get too old. Or say you met someone online and are moving to be with them? There's all sorts of reasons you could conjure up.
 
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lululoo

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I've quit jobs without having another one lined up and always got another one but my prior field (public accounting) has a dearth of applicants so this worked in my favor.

Can you quit with some bullshit reason like you have money saved and wanted to travel for a few months before you get too old. Or say you met someone online and are moving to be with them? There's all sorts of reasons you could conjure up.

I definitely couldn't easily find another so I'd have to be sure about my decision if I were to quit. Those are good ideas for excuses, thank you!

My other option would be to try to use FMLA to go on "leave" due to my physical illness. I did this before at another job and it was a hassle though. Awkward and embarrassing and lots of paper work. I'd have to have a plan for why this would benefit me and I'd have to go to lots of doctors during my break. Though I guess if I am gonna CTB I can just not go and let the consequences pile up.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

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I definitely couldn't easily find another so I'd have to be sure about my decision if I were to quit. Those are good ideas for excuses, thank you!

My other option would be to try to use FMLA to go on "leave" due to my physical illness. I did this before at another job and it was a hassle though. Awkward and embarrassing and lots of paper work. I'd have to have a plan for why this would benefit me and I'd have to go to lots of doctors during my break. Though I guess if I am gonna CTB I can just not go and let the consequences pile up.

I was also going to suggest FMLA but the process sounds too onerous, and having to keep up with dr appts is more than I could bear.

Wish you luck in whatever you decide.
 
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Haze

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Jan 1, 2019
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Wish I could have my job I quit back.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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I'm pretty lame.
I don´t think you are because you are right people judge us left and right at even after age 20 it isn´t "cute" more to have problems even in our early to mid twenties we are supposed to have a job and not have problems with our lives anymore.
 
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MsM3talGamer

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I have enough saved to last me a little while. I just want to spend some time watching tv, reading, sleeping, and eating. Slowly get more depressed, fatter, and gather my courage and then CTB. Ignore everyone. Just rest and live free of responsibility for awhile before I go. Could be a few weeks, or maybe a few months.

Why don't I? Because I am chicken and too concerned with what people think. I'm worried I wouldn't go through ctb and then I'd be screwed. Or even if I did, I'd struggle with all the judgement I'd get from coworkers and friends and family for quitting without another job. Judgment destroys me. I'm pretty lame.

Sorry if this is obnoxious. Maybe I sound lucky that I have a financial cushion. But I will add it's not very big and also I have a chronic illness and suck at my job so I feel like this is not sustainable so at some point I will be unemployed and destitute.
Good luck with whatever you decide. That kitteh avatar is really cute!
 
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lululoo

lululoo

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Dec 15, 2018
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Wish I could have my job I quit back.
I know I will feel like that if I quit and don't kill myself. I was unemployed for a long time so I know how bad that can be.
At the same time, I hate this job so much! And I want to live life without it before I die!
There is no answer.

Sorry you have regrets.
 
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