lululoo
Mage
- Dec 15, 2018
- 558
I have enough saved to last me a little while. I just want to spend some time watching tv, reading, sleeping, and eating. Slowly get more depressed, fatter, and gather my courage and then CTB. Ignore everyone. Just rest and live free of responsibility for awhile before I go. Could be a few weeks, or maybe a few months.
Why don't I? Because I am chicken and too concerned with what people think. I'm worried I wouldn't go through ctb and then I'd be screwed. Or even if I did, I'd struggle with all the judgement I'd get from coworkers and friends and family for quitting without another job. Judgment destroys me. I'm pretty lame.
Sorry if this is obnoxious. Maybe I sound lucky that I have a financial cushion. But I will add it's not very big and also I have a chronic illness and suck at my job so I feel like this is not sustainable so at some point I will be unemployed and destitute.
Why don't I? Because I am chicken and too concerned with what people think. I'm worried I wouldn't go through ctb and then I'd be screwed. Or even if I did, I'd struggle with all the judgement I'd get from coworkers and friends and family for quitting without another job. Judgment destroys me. I'm pretty lame.
Sorry if this is obnoxious. Maybe I sound lucky that I have a financial cushion. But I will add it's not very big and also I have a chronic illness and suck at my job so I feel like this is not sustainable so at some point I will be unemployed and destitute.