Wish i can hire a hitman on myself

[Hyd999]

Too scared to ctb at this exact moment but id pay anything to hire a hitman to take me out. I just wana die i hate this world so much. Fuck my life

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're struggling what's wrong to make you hate life so much?

 

[Hyd999]

Had an online relationship with a girl for 2 days lol then she told me her x is back in her life and dont wana talk. I was so depressed the first week. The second week i was getting over her.

She messaged me on friday and we talked again and now she doesnt want to talk again.

Im so fucking stupid for talking to her again. But im so fucking desperate i couldnt just ignore her. Now im all upset again and just so disapointed in myself i cant even sleep
And also im so desperate that i sent her a message from another account begging her to talk to me again. I know her talking to me is setting me up for failure but im a failure anyways. But i cant stop putting myself in a spot where im hurting myself. I wish i could move on but it is not easy for me

 

[FuneralCry]

I also hate existing in this hellish world, it's a curse to have the ability to exist here. I personally always wish to just never wake again, but sadly I believe that only those who are very fortunate pass away so peacefully. And anyway, the reality is that people can be very disappointing and you just cannot rely on them. It's certainly for the best to be alone as being around others just leads to more suffering.

 

[Hyd999]

Yeah it seems for me its best to be alone. But it sucks so bad and makes life feel so pointless. I would give anything to not wake up one morning. To have no control over my death and just be gone

 

[lukas19]

Had an online relationship with a girl for 2 days lol then she told me her x is back in her life and dont wana talk. I was so depressed the first week. The second week i was getting over her.

She messaged me on friday and we talked again and now she doesnt want to talk again.

Im so fucking stupid for talking to her again. But im so fucking desperate i couldnt just ignore her. Now im all upset again and just so disapointed in myself i cant even sleep
And also im so desperate that i sent her a message from another account begging her to talk to me again. I know her talking to me is setting me up for failure but im a failure anyways. But i cant stop putting myself in a spot where im hurting myself. I wish i could move on but it is not easy for me

I hate it when someone blows and cold, your head shoots from to happy to down/depressed. Sounds she enjoys pulling your strings. Best avoid.