Help Will you read my note?

[DeadD]

It's not really a matter of "if" anymore, now it's just about when. I'm ready to go. I'm trying to hold on just a little longer so I can get things in order. Just Incase I do it in a fit though, I'd like to have a note waiting. This is what I've got. I'm worried it's to short. I want to minimize the pain I'm going to inflict on them as much as possible. Any feedback is appreciated.


"Let me begin with an apology. You all deserved better than to have to endure such a heart break. I tried to survive, I really did. In the end, the world just wasn't prepared to help. That's not anyone's fault. It's a painful fact of life. It's unfair, unforgiving, and cruel.



The pain I felt was beyond the words I spoke. Everyday was a torment, and all it did was hurt everyone around me. I can't ever take back the pain I've inflicted on you. I'm sorry.



(My gf,) please know that I am finally happy and free. You will do so well in this world with out me, even if it doesn't feel like it. The person you were before we started dating was much brighter. You can't even see how much life I've sucked out of you. In time, you will flourish.



I'm happy. I will always be with you. I love you."

 

[Jean4]

I think you did a great job. Maybe also leave a photo or something personal?

 

[Melkus2020]

It's never easy writing one. I don't have the skill to write a decent one anyways. So I won't.

 

[DeadD]

I think you did a great job. Maybe also leave a photo or something personal?

I think I'll leave her my favorite sweater. I love the idea of leaving something. But I fear a picture might cause to much pain. One can't avoid how painful it's going to be b, I don't know, I just don't want her to suffer more than she has to...

It's never easy writing one. I don't have the skill to write a decent one anyways. So I won't.

That's a completely valid stance to have. If my note resonated at all, you have my permission to take it and alter it to something that fits your situation. I would offer to help write one but I don't want to make anymore promises I can't keep

if you don't want to leave a note though, you're valid

 

[Jean4]

I think I'll leave her my favorite sweater. I love the idea of leaving something. But I fear a picture might cause to much pain. One can't avoid how painful it's going to be b, I don't know, I just don't want her to suffer more than she has to...

That's a completely valid stance to have. If my note resonated at all, you have my permission to take it and alter it to something that fits your situation. I would offer to help write one but I don't want to make anymore promises I can't keep

if you don't want to leave a note though, you're valid

My partner CTB on December 8. After he died I received in the mail a goodbye note and Christmas gift. I wish he sent pictures.

 

[DeadD]

My partner CTB on December 8. After he died I received in the mail a goodbye note and Christmas gift. I wish he sent pictures.

Thanks for letting me know this. I'll leave some pictures of us too. Also, I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[Jean4]

Thanks for letting me know this. I'll leave some pictures of us too. Also, I am so sorry for your loss.

Know we are here for you.