What are the chances of you catching the bus before New Years?
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,804
As of now, very very unlikely, I believe that if things get bad enough then I will go early 2019. While I plan to go in 2019, I don't plan on seeing all of 2019. My when is determined by life circumstances as all it takes is a shitty enough event to push me over the edge and overcome my SI.
Nope, I want to experience Christmas and New Years one last time
With the way things are going, I might not make it to the end of the week.
I would off been dead already if I successfully made it. Just useless at it.I always wake up after overdosing and can never become unconscious when trying partial. Think I may have too do full. Just wish if I know now how my life would off turned out would off have had the balls too jump with my first attempt at 14.
Crest33
Sheet slinger
- Nov 28, 2018
- 261
I'm waiting on my sn to pick my date.
Trashcan
Trash
- Aug 31, 2018
- 1,234
Me too exactly my situation. I feel I should have been gone last month. I'm just waiting for my stuff to come hopefully this will work. The problem I have with the partial is my husband finding me it seems less traumatic than od on the bed.
Yeah I understand, I've booked a hotel room for early Jan, going to attempt again. Still want hanging as it didn't hurt just couldn't pass out. It's not nice for anyone to find you but somebody always will.good luck in your method, I want to try SN , but my stomach is rubbish probably be sick . I do get excited when I know I can attempt again . How do you feel?
Hanging scares me and I can't even get it together to set that all up right now. :( but good luck with your attempt. Its always good to have a backup method I think. The rest of my pills got locked in the safe but there isn't any real good ones in there anyways so I'm forced to buy them online which I'd risky but I have no other choice. I ordered sn too. I'm not really scared of pain as long as it works and I'm not suffering anymore. If I could guarantee completion after sn I wouldn't be as worried. Survival instinct sets in and i dont want to call for help. I'm home all day alone and have time to do it but I think in my situation pills would be the best. so hoping to get this done before Christmas. I know its going to kill my family but I'm done suffering. It gets easier every time you attempt CBT.
Made4TV
A hopeless hope junkie
- Sep 17, 2018
- 574
It's really my hope, but I always keep finding a little glimmer of hope and postponing....and my to-do list is quite long and overwhelming a bit.
I wish you good luck, sounds like you need this aswell. Pills are hit and miss, but you might get lucky .
Thank you and yes pills are but if my order actually comes I ordered 180 amitriptyline so that should do the trick but online orders can be scams. Ugh if I could find the pills now guaranteed it'd be so much easier.
nothing is ever guaranteed on the web. And the only thing I would trust would be diamorphine or insulin. If only I knew a doctor :(
Yes I know. I wish knew one too. Sn seems to be the only real substance online. I guess if the amitriptyline doesn't work then the sn is next. I also ordered sodium azide too. Why does this have to be so hard.
NoOneKnows
Specialist
- Sep 12, 2018
- 323
I would really need to do it before Xmas, Im getting worse and worse. But very hard since unexpectedly relative arrived, now its too risky to assure 2 people wont be here for sufficient amount of time. Nevertheless I probably will take the risk
GhostedToast
Wants to disappear
- Sep 25, 2018
- 144
I've entertained myself with the thought of going on new years. New year no more of me. Probably good for my friends because they could just go on like i never existed.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
They will always hold a part of you with them, Im' sure
don't know, it gives me hope when others succeed on here. That's what keeps me going.
I just don't want my family to associate Christmas with my suicide. They been quite good with me this year when it's been the worst year I've ever been through. And been thorough some rubbish . Think I will eat all the chocolate, have some festive fun. And hopefully it will be my turn in January. Let's be honest January is the worst month for depressed people, hate it. Good luck though, always want people to be happy :)
Would be fun to do it at 12.o'clock.. fireworks go off and just fade away
Xerxes
Invisible
- Nov 8, 2018
- 936
Nada, gonna be on a day of least importance. Maybe April Fools day.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Hmmmmmmmm could hilarious :-/ :-/
"SURPRIIIIIISE"
Yes I think so too no one should suffer. I keep trying to tell that to people. Yes, its sad when life is gone but not if that person was living in hell. That's no way to live life. Everyone's timing is different there is no right or wrong time to go. I just want to go now I'm ready. I just don't have a guaranteed method. I dont want to spend Xmas in the psych Ward so have to make it count.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Why are you so worried about admission?
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
I am trying very hard to but I lack courage.
frank630
Member
- Jul 29, 2018
- 24
That was always the plan. Unfortunately, I'm still here.
Yes, unless anything goes wrong, interruptions, variables, etc. that aside, then all should go well and I'll be out of here before 2019.
