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- Jan 27, 2026
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I have a suicide plan, and the materials are prepared as follows:
A carbon dioxide canister for a soda maker（Top Tr21*4）,
a converter matching the canister head model,
a pressure reducer matching the converter model,
a small inflatable pool that is tall enough, wide enough, and long enough for me to lie down vertically in, and a hose.
I will send the carbon dioxide canister to a nitrogen filling station to be filled with nitrogen. Then, I will attach the converter and the pressure reducer together and connect them to the nitrogen-filled canister. Next, I will set the gas release rate to a very low level. After inflating the small pool, I will fill it with water using the hose—just enough to drown me, without exceeding the red line in the posture shown in the illustration. Then, I will enter the pool, kneel down, with one hand supporting myself and the other holding the canister.
I will place the outlet of the pressure reducer in my mouth and open the valve. Before losing consciousness, I will exhale through my nose. Once I pass out, I should fall into the water and drown within three minutes, similar to the principle of shallow water blackout, but slightly faster than nitrogen alone.
I chose this method because if I use anesthetic drugs like propofol to knock myself out in water, there's a risk of intraoperative awareness. If that happens, I would be paralyzed in the water and drown alive. I am an extremely unlucky person, so I dare not take that risk. Overdosing on blood pressure medication would cause suffering before losing consciousness, so I ruled that out as well. I won't stand on a rooftop, take an anesthetic, and jump because I'm too scared. Nitrogen feels too slow, and if I'm rescued, I could end up in a vegetative state. The SN method might be painful. I'm not using the shallow water blackout method directly because hyperventilation causes me extreme anxiety and doesn't seem to work for me anyway.I can never find the right spot to hang myself, and the way my vision slowly goes black terrifies me.
I am a shut-in. Since I've attempted suicide before, my parents keep a close watch on me. I can't go to a hotel to do it because my parents don't give me my ID card (hotels in China require identification). So, I wanted to find a relatively quick method. The one I described probably seems silly and complicated, but it's the best I could come up with. I'm sure it has many flaws or might not work at all. I'm sharing it in the hope that someone can point out its shortcomings. The only responses I won't accept are personal attacks or sarcasm. Thank you, everyone!
(To those who showed concern in my previous posts, I will definitely go to the hospital to address my cognitive impairment. But if the hospital can't help, I hope to carry out this plan as soon as I return.)
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A carbon dioxide canister for a soda maker（Top Tr21*4）,
a converter matching the canister head model,
a pressure reducer matching the converter model,
a small inflatable pool that is tall enough, wide enough, and long enough for me to lie down vertically in, and a hose.I will send the carbon dioxide canister to a nitrogen filling station to be filled with nitrogen. Then, I will attach the converter and the pressure reducer together and connect them to the nitrogen-filled canister. Next, I will set the gas release rate to a very low level. After inflating the small pool, I will fill it with water using the hose—just enough to drown me, without exceeding the red line in the posture shown in the illustration. Then, I will enter the pool, kneel down, with one hand supporting myself and the other holding the canister.
I will place the outlet of the pressure reducer in my mouth and open the valve. Before losing consciousness, I will exhale through my nose. Once I pass out, I should fall into the water and drown within three minutes, similar to the principle of shallow water blackout, but slightly faster than nitrogen alone.I chose this method because if I use anesthetic drugs like propofol to knock myself out in water, there's a risk of intraoperative awareness. If that happens, I would be paralyzed in the water and drown alive. I am an extremely unlucky person, so I dare not take that risk. Overdosing on blood pressure medication would cause suffering before losing consciousness, so I ruled that out as well. I won't stand on a rooftop, take an anesthetic, and jump because I'm too scared. Nitrogen feels too slow, and if I'm rescued, I could end up in a vegetative state. The SN method might be painful. I'm not using the shallow water blackout method directly because hyperventilation causes me extreme anxiety and doesn't seem to work for me anyway.I can never find the right spot to hang myself, and the way my vision slowly goes black terrifies me.
I am a shut-in. Since I've attempted suicide before, my parents keep a close watch on me. I can't go to a hotel to do it because my parents don't give me my ID card (hotels in China require identification). So, I wanted to find a relatively quick method. The one I described probably seems silly and complicated, but it's the best I could come up with. I'm sure it has many flaws or might not work at all. I'm sharing it in the hope that someone can point out its shortcomings. The only responses I won't accept are personal attacks or sarcasm. Thank you, everyone!
(To those who showed concern in my previous posts, I will definitely go to the hospital to address my cognitive impairment. But if the hospital can't help, I hope to carry out this plan as soon as I return.)
I used translator
