Here you are again, @An0nymouse_97! We discussed cutting yesterday, remember? ("Very painful and unreliable" was the verdict.) Since you've also been asking about SN, I have the impression that you're distraught and in pain, and that's not a great state of mind for making good decisions and plans.
Do you want to talk about your situation?
There's no rush, right? You can take the time to get calmer, read through the resources available and weigh your options. People here are good listeners and will support and advise you compassionately. x