Help Will I get scammed? Can someone help me find something similar

[LunarEc]

I've read a lot about Nembutal and its effects. If injected directly into the bloodstream, death can occur in minutes, and unconsciousness can occur in just seconds. The easiest and most painless way to die right? Well, I'm not looking for a liquid version of it to inject. I was looking for pills. I know the pills start affecting the body in around 20-30 minutes, by then I'd probably fall unconscious. I plan to take my life some day next week, maybe in a month, maybe next year, I got no clue. I don't like pain, the only pain that I ever tolerated was scratching myself using sharp objects, I barely made any cuts because I am so scared of the pain that'll follow after. I don't want to violate the rules of this forum so I'll word it like this, I know my ways to remain secretive, I know my ways to browse the internet where stuff gets sold. I'm not sure however if I'll get scammed or not. I haven't been able to find Nembutal, but IF it doesn't break the rules I hope someone can help with that? If not then it's fine, I just want to know if I'll get scammed if I ever actually find that stuff on there. If the answer is yes then what's the next option for me? I have only 40 minutes at best by that time I have to be dead. I'm not able to die at home for reasons I won't mention, either ways if I ever wanted to die, I'll always go to my favorite place nearby a river. I plan to listen to some music as I die, I got a phone on me that I don't want someone to steal. I'd like for it to be returned to my family, even though I hate them, but it isn't necessarily mine, I didn't buy. I asked for it a while ago, it stayed with me for years. I'm 18 now, I can't wait any longer. I've failed in so many things, life isn't meant to be for me. My dad used to be physically abusive, he'd beat me, I remember one time I bled because of how much he hit me. I was born in war, at the age of 4, when I was in the streets; I'd hear bullets fly by. If I was lucky I could sometimes actually pick up dishka rounds freshly fired. One time a whole barrel bomb fell just a couple houses down from where I was. I don't remember much of it. I remember seeing ISIS roam the streets they beat up some dude for whatever reason and left. Im not exactly sure if they're ISIS or not but they looked like they were cuz of the masks and what not. I lived in a refugee camp half of my life, I had no friends at all, my family is heavily religious, Im atheist. I moved to the U.S a while ago, it made life easier but even here I was bullied and picked on all my school life for no reason, maybe it's because I never stood up for myself. I dont believe in harming others but everyone around me seems to believe in doing so. I've tried to kill myself twice, last attempt failed, sent to a psych ward, that was years ago though when I was under. I could've improved my life if I actually looked for friends or that stuff but I didnt because I always kept things quiet. Im an average 6/10, Im not that handsome or that ugly so my looks dont bother me. Im avg weight for my height and age, Ive asked people to rate me I always get 6s or 7s, so my looks arent the problem it's just my luck. It's fucked.

edit: I didnt mention that I got some GI condition that has been affecting me for years, it makes life harder and I've failed school because of it, I got no job because of it. I wont mention what it does or what it is because it's something that embarrasses me so i'll leave it at that.

 

[CemeterySleeper]

It will almost certainly be a scam if found on the clear net. I've heard there are dark web sources but I couldn't tell you anything about that, those still have the risk of being scams or very expensive,(or both) but without knowing what you are doing will probably just end up losing money. My understanding is that N is not a popular recreational drug so even if you find a legit seller on a dark web drug market it will be very expensive because it is likely only being sold to one time buyers who came with an elevated chance of investigation.

That being said it is not impossible someone on here knows something and if they do I would like to hear too, but there is a reason the much inferior SN is talked about so much here.

Edited to fix an autocorrect that made "dark web" "darker"

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you find Nembutal on the Dark Net, there's a 99.9999% chance you'll get scammed.

 

[LunarEc]

is there a

If you find Nembutal on the Dark Net, there's a 99.9999% chance you'll get scammed.

is there an alternative? like similar time of death and painless?

It will almost certainly be a scam if found on the clear net. I've heard there are dark web sources but I couldn't tell you anything about that, those still have the risk of being scams or very expensive,(or both) but without knowing what you are doing will probably just end up losing money. My understanding is that N is not a popular recreational drug so even if you find a legit seller on a dark web drug market it will be very expensive because it is likely only being sold to one time buyers who came with an elevated chance of investigation.

That being said it is not impossible someone on here knows something and if they do I would like to hear too, but there is a reason the much inferior SN is talked about so much here.

Edited to fix an autocorrect that made "dark web" "darker"

Yeh I guessed so, I could perhaps get it legally prescribed. I already have insomnia and I know that they prescribe it for insomnia but Im not sure if they do that anymore I read somewhere about it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

is there an alternative? like similar time of death and painless?

Not that I'm aware. Some have had luck going to S. America or Mexico in person to get it.

 

[CemeterySleeper]

is there a

is there an alternative? like similar time of death and painless?

Yeh I guessed so, I could perhaps get it legally prescribed. I already have insomnia and I know that they prescribe it for insomnia but Im not sure if they do that anymore I read somewhere about it.

I'm not in your country but I have some pharmacy training, you will not get it prescribed unless the standards there are much more lax. The whole class of drugs has largely been replaced as both an anti anxiety and sleep aid by benzos, zopiclone, and other new sleep aids, if they did prescribe a barb it would not be that one and would likely not be enough. I have seen a post on here saying they got some from a vet in Tijuana, and that is honestly probably the only realistic option if your mind is set on it. I am not keen on giving advice when it comes to good methods (I'll call out poor ones but that's a bit different) but if you are truly set on this (your age is why I am stressing this so much, I'm 32 and have had lots of time to think about things) the best non N peaceful method is inert gas, but that one has a high risk of serious complications if it fails, but then again so does any serious method.

 

[LunarEc]

I'm not in your country but I have some pharmacy training, you will not get it prescribed unless the standards there are much more lax. The whole class of drugs has largely been replaced as both an anti anxiety and sleep aid by benzos, zopiclone, and other new sleep aids, if they did prescribe a barb it would not be that one and would likely not be enough. I have seen a post on here saying they got some from a vet in Tijuana, and that is honestly probably the only realistic option if your mind is set on it. I am not keen on giving advice when it comes to good methods (I'll call out poor ones but that's a bit different) but if you are truly set on this (your age is why I am stressing this so much, I'm 32 and have had lots of time to think about things) the best non N peaceful method is inert gas, but that one has a high risk of serious complications if it fails, but then again so does any serious method.

Thanks, I'll probably just look more into it myself. I wont be doing insert gas though, too expensive and either ways it wouldnt work cuz Im gonna die in a public setting :L

Not that I'm aware. Some have had luck going to S. America or Mexico in person to get it.

A trip that I cannot afford sadly lol, Im confused honestly debating a lot of things right now. Idk if im gonna live another year or another week. If I do live another year then I'll try to synthesize it myself if I can ever do that lol I didnt even take chemistry.

 

[Richard Langford]

It isn't anywhere to be found on the largest DWM. People ask about it on said markets forum over time but no one responds.

 

[SummerSolesLongLost]

Its a scam mate, sorry to say. SN Or Exit Bag is best bet these days.