Venting Why

[No hope]

Why am I still alive? Everyone around me is normal and plans a future all I want is to b dead! Not because I want to b dead because I have to, I've not been living for so long now I don't what it is and I can't get better cus I have brain injury and I also don't know how to ctb cus of that

 

[Blackjack]

Can you get SN or N?