Why wait?

[Livingvsdying25]

Why wait? I'm at my dads. There's a bridge I've almost jumped off of a thousand times. There's another one not too far from here that is definitely high enough as well.

If one thing I wanted was a as peaceful as possible death. My life.. I don't want so among other reasons I just wanted to have the kind of end that I want.

Everyday all these things so alone so unloved so unheard..

Why even bother waiting for a method I like when there's one right around the corner. Damn if at least wanna be hppped on drugs but do not have enough.

even that doesn't matter or at least I can try to make it not matter.

im not sure I can hold on I just wanna press eject

I get how childish this sounds but
the world is so mean.
It's so sad already that I'm leaving the world like this but the fact that it's just so awful I can't even wait a little for my method is sad.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

It does not sound childish at all... You are hurting and we are here for you
Sending you and ..

 

[Thereisnothing]

There is no point in opting for a second choice method that you are not sure about, if you have one you prefer to use. Its incredibly tough getting through every second, each new feeling, the hideous round and round in circles of despair and longing to get out of the situation.
You say you are alone, unloved and so unheard. Well for a start you are not alone, you have people here who will listen and help as much as we can. You may feel you are unloved, but you aren't, how do I know, well for one I care about you and showing you my love by reading and answering your post. I may not be in front of you personally and you dont know me but that doesn't stop love from travelling. You are so unheard in the world, yet there are so may ears on here which are waiting to listen to what you have to say and share. You say yourself its sad leaving the world like this, it doesn't have to be. Try and hold on at least until you can feel more confident and think clearly. We are here for you and believe me you are worth so much, remember that, however bad you feel and desperate always keep thinking you are and try and allow yourself to believe it.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Why wait? I'm at my dads. There's a bridge I've almost jumped off of a thousand times. There's another one not too far from here that is definitely high enough as well.

If one thing I wanted was a as peaceful as possible death. My life.. I don't want so among other reasons I just wanted to have the kind of end that I want.

Everyday all these things so alone so unloved so unheard..

Why even bother waiting for a method I like when there's one right around the corner. Damn if at least wanna be hppped on drugs but do not have enough.

even that doesn't matter or at least I can try to make it not matter.

im not sure I can hold on I just wanna press eject

I get how childish this sounds but
the world is so mean.
It's so sad already that I'm leaving the world like this but the fact that it's just so awful I can't even wait a little for my method is sad.

I should clearly stop reaching out bc. Talk to one person get insulted y'all to my brother again the point or my vent is completely negated.
(Why the fuck would I list if you said I shouldn't move DOES ANYONE NOT LISTENING TO HOW MUCH I SUFFER LIVING WITH MY MOM)

I'm so ignored it's not even funny. I just want to jump today the only reason why I wouldn't is failing and drawing attention to myself .

it wouldn't matter tho bc even if I didn't go home my mom would just think I'm being stupid so. None of it matters.

why doesn't my life matter

I just hope I can take enough of something to safe away I'm tired and I don't want to die from Bridge right before I move.

 

[FreedomInDeath]

If you are an adult, which you should be if you are here but it does not sound like it, why not do everything you can to move out, find new people and forget about your parents? A lot of peoples parents do not love them and they move on and find people who do.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Housing possibly jeopardized.
Bc of me.

if it doesn't work out I will be taking myself to A bridge and that's just that