Venting Why make suicide so hard for us?

[lifeafterdeath]

Tried to commit suicide by hanging but failed because can't for the life of me figure out how to do it correctly. Tried six fucking times.
Can't buy nembutal.
Can't buy CO gas.
Why does society like to see us suffer so much?
Why?
Are we being punished for something?
Why can't assisted suicide be legal?
Fuck society.
I am so fucking sick and tired.

Don't we have a right to die peacefully if we want to?
And if anyone could help me out on the hanging thing it would be great. Full suspensions is impossible for me as there are no means to do it.Partial hanging is the only way to go. But I just don't get it. I mean for me , I just don't black out in seconds and it feels like I am choking. I am still willing to give it a go even if it hurts.

 

[lemmeeleev]

They would rather have us suffer than have to deal with what happens after we die. As long as we're alive, they don't care. And no, we don't have a right to a peaceful end unless you're terminally I'll worh absolutely no chance you'll live and are going to die soon, but only in the places that allow euthanasia.
As for hanging, apply more pressure if you can't pass out and make sure the rope is in the right spot. Partial takes practice, but don't hurt yourself in the process. And there are always other methods you could always research like the night night method, SN, etc.

 

[Circles]

Because it goes against 4 things the system believes: money, power, religion and the supposed sanctity of life. It makes people unnervingly think for a moment that everything they believe may just be wrong but they're too stubborn, ignorant and blinded by self interests to care enough about a fellow human being's suffering. People only give an ounce of thought and notice to those who are terminally ill and since they can't 'see' mental illness, chronic pain, etc. they think nothing is too bad for us to handle and just want us to deal with it so they give the standard list of platitudes about perspectives and that stupid fucking prevention lifeline number as their way of 'helping'.

 

[lemmeeleev]

and that stupid fucking prevention ifeline number as their way of 'helping'.

Just that number is enough to make me want to die. I can't search anything about suicide without it showing up on everything. People give you the number and send you on your way so they don't have to deal with you. That's the way I see it anyways.

 

[Severnayasemiramida]

Just that number is enough to make me want to die. I can't search anything about suicide without it showing up on everything. People give you the number and send you on your way so they don't have to deal with you. That's the way I see it anyways.

Use DuckDuckGo, there is no such a shit here

 

[lemmeeleev]

Use DuckDuckGo, there is no such a shit here

I do, but I still see it on a lot of websites about suicide.

 

[Jc40]

Do you not think that if we were 'allowed' to die, that if it was common practice, more people would do it and others consider it and have no qualms about it. Agree with circles. Everything comes down to money, power and control I think.

 

[StillWaiting]

Guess it is impossible for assisted suicide to be widely available for people. Sometimes I feel that people who sell legit SN and N are like our saviors. I cant get access to them but just the thought of others having access to it makes me feel a little better.
Nevertheless it is a living hell to be in between wanting to be dead and not having the access to less painful method or method we want.
I just find it so unfair to be kept alive even though I am in so much pain everyday

 

[lifeafterdeath]

They would rather have us suffer than have to deal with what happens after we die. As long as we're alive, they don't care. And no, we don't have a right to a peaceful end unless you're terminally I'll worh absolutely no chance you'll live and are going to die soon, but only in the places that allow euthanasia.
As for hanging, apply more pressure if you can't pass out and make sure the rope is in the right spot. Partial takes practice, but don't hurt yourself in the process. And there are always other methods you could always research like the night night method, SN, etc.

I have no other means other than partial hanging. I will try it everyday, but I just want it to end in me being dead and nothing else. Scared of becoming a vegetable.

 

[lemmeeleev]

I have no other means other than partial hanging. I will try it everyday, but I just want it to end in me being dead and nothing else. Scared of becoming a vegetable.

Make sure there's plenty of time when you do it so no one finds you and tries to save you. And check your rope and what you plan to tie it to so neither breaks and you should be safe from that happening. Those are the reasons people fail, plus backing out (which is perfectly OK).

 

[NextSummer]

Dieing alone
dieing painfully
traumatize your family
= allowed

Last talks,
peacefully sleep,
dignified farewell
= forbidden

 

[Life sucks]

Same as what many said, they don't want you dead so they can use you for different reasons. The state and the machine wants more people for operation. The corporations and companies want more consumers for cash grabbing. The religious and other types of groups wants more followers. Other people like family wants you for their selfish reasons. Then after you die not by suicide, they'll use your death for religious and other forms of propaganda.
One has no value in this shitty meaningless life. Life sucks

 

[Kikoo Loool]

They fear to realize that their lives don't deserve to be lived more than ours.

 

[Deadgirl]

They only want us around for their own comfort till they're done with us. Which by the way is the most selfish thing. My so called best friend (she called me that)stopped me from suicide and i got locked up. Once high school was over she never talked to me again. That is the most selfish thing she's ever done.

 

[Psilo]

Same can't buy Nembutal. I have no choice but to go the SN way, fuck.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Because stupid idealistic people think that everyone can be happy and find their place in this world when clearly we can't.

 

[Roberto]

Because our only problem is that we don't believe in god for them. And that can be changed with little effort.
Sorry I forgot why I was here. My mind is confused. Since I got Internet, I have less time to think and my desires of ctb goes down. Sometimes things change suddenly and I think : Do I ctb now? Then I've got the reminder of the cats with some fear of death . I'm happy to see the pills. It feels so good.

 

[Meretlein]

Same can't buy Nembutal. I have no choice but to go the SN way, fuck.

SN is decent some people have reported what it felt like before dying.

 

[NextSummer]

I don't think people want us to make suffer intentionally. There is no awareness of this problem. In my joyful non-suicidal time of my life, I thought banning peaceful substances saved people. I didn't think about the painful outcome of this ban. I didn't think how people are suffering, dieing alone, painfully. Nobody said anything about this perspective. There is simply no activism.

 

[lifeafterdeath]

They only want us around for their own comfort till they're done with us. Which by the way is the most selfish thing. My so called best friend (she called me that)stopped me from suicide and i got locked up. Once high school was over she never talked to me again. That is the most selfish thing she's ever done.

these are not friends. These are people who enjoy to see us suffer. See us in positions below them so that they can feel good about themselves.

 

[dyingtodie]

All the above posts are right on.

I've read in a reliable manual that the tourniquet method, if failed, does not cause lasting damage. It's difficult for me to understand how this is possible...but what I read suggests that if the tourniquet slips off, gets untied etc that one would recover without ill effect. Perhaps in most cases this is true, I'm still scared to try. Although "Dress Rehearsles" have felt very comfortable.

 

[Deadgirl]

these are not friends. These are people who enjoy to see us suffer. See us in positions below them so that they can feel good about themselves.

That's what i exactly thought after I graduated. She liked to be above me. That's why people stop others from dying especially the psychiatric industry. They like to one up us.

 

[TAW122]

Same as what many said, they don't want you dead so they can use you for different reasons. The state and the machine wants more people for operation. The corporations and companies want more consumers for cash grabbing. The religious and other types of groups wants more followers. Other people like family wants you for their selfish reasons. Then after you die not by suicide, they'll use your death for religious and other forms of propaganda.
One has no value in this shitty meaningless life. Life sucks

Hmm, based on that, if society, government, and people in general just want money, power, and control, well then I suppose they won't have much to take from me perhaps? I'm working a job that pays just enough to live off of, and that job is ending soon, which will leave me to live off of the savings until I find another job to make ends meet (or get some assistance in the form of SSI or other kind of welfare). I also live very minimalistically (meaning I don't get more than what I need and my wants are generally cheap or free) and try to get as many freebies as I can because fuck society. I also don't conform to society or play their games unless it is to get by (like getting and keeping a job just to make ends meet) and stay out of trouble (follow laws but do the legal minimum).

I mean, one way or another, I'm still under the rule of society and government, but at least I'm still coming out on the winning side? (Since I do the bare minimum, don't conform and live on my own terms, and too poor for people to desire me or use me or take advantage of me)

 

[Life sucks]

Hmm, based on that, if society, government, and people in general just want money, power, and control, well then I suppose they won't have much to take from me perhaps? I'm working a job that pays just enough to live off of, and that job is ending soon, which will leave me to live off of the savings until I find another job to make ends meet (or get some assistance in the form of SSI or other kind of welfare). I also live very minimalistically (meaning I don't get more than what I need and my wants are generally cheap or free) and try to get as many freebies as I can because fuck society. I also don't conform to society or play their games unless it is to get by (like getting and keeping a job just to make ends meet) and stay out of trouble (follow laws but do the legal minimum).

I mean, one way or another, I'm still under the rule of society and government, but at least I'm still coming out on the winning side? (Since I do the bare minimum, don't conform and live on my own terms, and too poor for people to desire me or use me or take advantage of me)

Yes you can rebel or reduce it or play around it (and I do the same Btw) but at the end, they'll always prefer existence over non-existence, even for the tiniest amount of profit

 

[Davy]

imagine if we had the suicide booths from Futurama

 

[CornerE]

I need one way or another, I'm still under the rule of society and government, but at least I'm still coming out on the winning side? (Since I do the bare minimum, don't conform and live on my own terms, and too poor for people to desire me or use me or take advantage of me)

I hate to spoil your fun @thrw_a_way1221221 but if you're too poor while having a job , then you're already taken advantage of .

Not by society as a whole and not completely by the government ( your pay check is still cut off alot by taxes that you don't control its expenses ) .

But mainly by people who own your work place (capitalists - even if not so wealthy)

They do none of the job but gain all of the outcome of your (you and your work mates) efforts , leaving you the least you can live off of just so you could live to show up the next day and keep their profits as steady as they planned for .

I'm with you that you shouldn't let society or the state take advantage of you in any way .
Your not getting enough benefits of them to try to pay them back .

I mean , of all your rights they're stepping on , it's bad enough they could enslave you with psychiatric commitment anytime just for trying to escape their hell when you decide you've had enough and need to ctb .

I know that it's the best you could come up with in a capitalist materialistic world were we have no other option (except maybe being your own boss - free job - which is hard and tricky )
But still , your minimal wage is to their best interest , not yours .