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Allpainnogain
Experienced
- May 2, 2019
- 203
Hard in so many ways...hard to do the research, hard to do this correctly, hard to plan, hard not to get caught, hard not to be absolutely terrified but also hard to live with the emotional pain and suffering. I really wish our society understood how wretched it is to live like this and would help us. I'm so crippled by severe depression and anxiety that it is hard to find any strength to do this on my own. Yet everyday I live in hell, from the moment I wake up. I also get very little sleep despite meds. Things aren't going to get better and I wish there were an easy way out. I hate the broken shell I have become. Can't stand a minute longer yet don't have the strength to plan and carry this out properly