Venting Why is SH Twitter so disgusting?

[Acopia]

Has anyone else noticed?
Is it just me?
Vile.

 

[clayp]

What is that?

 

[Acopia]

What is that?

self harm twitter.. people post pictures/ videos of themselves engaging in sh, and I just don't understand why you'd want to do that, or why twitter allow it.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

Does SH stand for self harm?

 

[Acopia]

Does SH stand for self harm?

Yeah

 

[clayp]

Yeah

Does twitter allow that? Shame on them.

 

[Acopia]

Does twitter allow that? Shame on them.

Apparently so. It's so grim.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

It's like tumblr. People used to post a lot of self harm pictures there too along with pro-ana/mia stuff.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

I understand why, as I look at photos of self harm. It makes me feel less alone and being able to talk about it. I guess the down side is that it feels like a competition and I get darn envious of people who manage to go deeper and so then I go deeper, then it's a viscous loop.

 

[clayp]

I like videos about people popping black heads though In the face. I know I'm weird.

 

[Acopia]

I understand why, as I look at photos of self harm. It makes me feel less alone and being able to talk about it. I guess the down side is that it feels like a competition and I get darn envious of people who manage to go deeper and so then I go deeper, then it's a viscous loop.

I'm the same, I swear I've only gone deeper bc of twitter - as twisted as it sounds I got jealous. BUT it does feel like everyone's in competition with each other and now I'm on SS I'm starting to consider how twisted it is to post those sorts of things publicly.
Plus, I would never dream of posting such videos myself. I guess in my head SH is more a personal thing.

 

[Shades of Grey]

I understand why, as I look at photos of self harm. It makes me feel less alone and being able to talk about it. I guess the down side is that it feels like a competition and I get darn envious of people who manage to go deeper and so then I go deeper, then it's a viscous loop.

The competition is a very real issue.

When I was younger, I was sent to a DBT program because of self-harm. I have always been very private/discreet about it, and my scars are confined to places not visible to others. Outside of clinical settings, almost nobody knows that I've "been there". I was shocked at the quiet competition that went on in that DBT group... how invested certain people were in seeing my scars/injuries and showing me theirs (despite the fact that I was adamant that I don't show others, and that looking at others' fresh cuts was harmful for me).

Even as someone who doesn't share that mindset at all, it was hard not to get sucked in sometimes. They'd be flaunting things, presuming mine were less significant and that was why I wouldn't share, and I'd find some terrible part of myself looking and thinking "psh, that's child's play," or whatever. Then I'd feel absolute shit about it later. Not good.

 

[Lupgevif]

What's disgusting about it? Are they encouraging it? Or shaming the people in the pictures they post?

 

[Acopia]

I like videos about people popping black heads though In the face. I know I'm weird.

I do my own

What's disgusting about it? Are they encouraging it? Or shaming the people in the pictures they post?

I'd say they're encouraging/glorifying it.

The competition is a very real issue.

When I was younger, I was sent to a DBT program because of self-harm. I have always been very private/discreet about it, and my scars are confined to places not visible to others. Outside of clinical settings, almost nobody knows that I've "been there". I was shocked at the quiet competition that went on in that DBT group... how invested certain people were in seeing my scars/injuries and showing me theirs (despite the fact that I was adamant that I don't show others, and that looking at others' fresh cuts was harmful for me).

Even as someone who doesn't share that mindset at all, it was hard not to get sucked in sometimes. They'd be flaunting things, presuming mine were less significant and that was why I wouldn't share, and I'd find some terrible part of myself looking and thinking "psh, that's child's play," or whatever. Then I'd feel absolute shit about it later. Not good.

You've hit the nail on the head.
For me, SH is a personal issue. Mine aren't on areas of the body that can be flaunted - although I do have them up my arms from when I was a youngster, but I don't go anywhere visible anymore.

 

[almost_dead]

I agree , dont visit SH twitter . Use a self-harm subreddit known as r/madeofstyrofoam , they are hilarious and affectionate community and do not promote self-harm.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Talking about it in detail is fine, but I just dont understand showing it for everyone to see.
I have never even shown my arms or legs in public in the last 4 years.
Desperate much.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I agree , dont visit SH twitter . Use a self-harm subreddit known as r/madeofstyrofoam , they are hilarious and affectionate community and do not promote self-harm.

Yup. I know there's subreddits like r/selfharm and r/selfharmscars, but they make me feel like shit because then I feel like I don't cut enough, the deep scratches and other methods aren't valid, I have no right to say I'm suffering because I don't have scars like them.

r/madeofstyrofoam is just perfect because it jokes about the issue, but you generally don't feel isolated or the need to hurt yourself more.

Just my opinion

 

[BerryCakes]

It is what it is. I don't like judging as I was There™ once. Those people are in a very, very different world inside their own head, some even have full blown psychosis. It's best not to poke the hornet's nest and leave them alone, imo.

Beyond that, Western girls and women tend to be pretty tame about SH, from what I've seen. You should see the sort of stuff I've seen men and Japanese women on FC2 post. It's gut-wrenching.

 

[Shades of Grey]

I do want to clarify that I am not judging or criticizing those with visible scars up there. For various reasons, some of us harm (or have harmed) ourselves in visible places, others in more discreet ones. I firmly believe that nobody should feel an obligation to hide their bodies because they have visible scars.

My issue was with the flaunting, the competition, and forcing others to view fresh injuries with the knowledge that this behavior might encourage relapse or worsening self-harm. Particularly in the context of a treatment program.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

Prob a whole host of reasons as stated above. Perhaps shearing pictures and getting acknowledgment for what is going on, perhaps no one to speak to in their situation. I do think should be no censorship thou when you start to censor material their is no outlet then no possibility for someone to help. Perhaps see nothing wrong with posting pictures or one upmanship if that's what it is, as ordinary norms may not apply.
I got some marks on my arm I feel detached from them like I don't care who sees them or not (not sure if that makes sense) think just an outlet the harder the pictures the more they get noticed (for whatever reason)

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

the internet is so obsessed with trauma olympics it's disgusting. we're all suffering in our own ways. there's no point in adding to other people's problems by making them feel as if what they're going through isn't "bad" enough.

if people are going to post pictures or talk about that sort of content, at least put a damn trigger warning. not everybody wants to continue to self harm.

 

[Acopia]

It is what it is. I don't like judging as I was There™ once. Those people are in a very, very different world inside their own head, some even have full blown psychosis. It's best not to poke the hornet's nest and leave them alone, imo.

Beyond that, Western girls and women tend to be pretty tame about SH, from what I've seen. You should see the sort of stuff I've seen men and Japanese women on FC2 post. It's gut-wrenching.

Japanese shtwt is heart breaking.
& they have really pretty knives/ tools that they use, I saw a 'competition' where they were comparing their tools to see who's was the prettiest - like some knives have really intricate designs on them.
It's almost like watching some sort of perverse play, a lot of time and thought goes into it. So sad.
Whilst I'm sat over here haphazardly pulling the flimsy little blades out of razors thinking I'm having a hard time.. I see someone whip out a large knife that they've carefully sourced to have all flowers and diamonds encrusted into it. It's like a different world.
My mind is blown at what goes on.

 

[MrAsclepius]

SH community will always find a way to get past twitter and instagram's staff. When one hashtag is banned, three more pop up. It's even all over tumblr even though they supposedly banned all nsfw content.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I'll admit that I look at and post pictures of self-harm, but only on forums specifically for this purpose and not in communities that encourage or make light of it. I do it for attention and validation (it makes me feel heard and seen and I see it the same way as venting on here or elsewhere for support).

Competition and glorification are serious problems. Ultimately, it's up to each individual to be responsible with consuming this type of content and to determine if they are stable enough to see these types of things. I'm in favor of dedicated and regulated online spaces for self-harm pictures, but having them on such easily accessible and popular platforms like Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, etc. is certainly problematic.

 

[StateOfMind]

I agree , dont visit SH twitter . Use a self-harm subreddit known as r/madeofstyrofoam , they are hilarious and affectionate community and do not promote self-harm.

Suicide watch lol

 

[Acopia]

I'll admit that I look at and post pictures of self-harm, but only on forums specifically for this purpose and not in communities that encourage or make light of it. I do it for attention and validation (it makes me feel heard and seen and I see it the same way as venting on here or elsewhere for support).

Competition and glorification are serious problems. Ultimately, it's up to each individual to be responsible with consuming this type of content and to determine if they are stable enough to see these types of things. I'm in favor of dedicated and regulated online spaces for self-harm pictures, but having them on such easily accessible and popular platforms like Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, etc. is certainly problematic.

Totally agree. Thank you for sharing
- A

I'm confused.... if you find it so disgusting why do you look at it?

(Genuine question, no bad intentions)

'Tis a fair question.
I used to look at it before I joined SS earlier in the week. I was looking for somewhere online where I could find a community of support. In desperation I found myself in the dark world of sh twitter. It was more triggering and hurtful than supportive and helpful but.. like I say, desperation. (I must add that I never, nor would ever post anything like that on twitter).
Needless to say, since I've found you guys I feel that I have what I was looking for and I don't peruse twitter for that sort of help anymore.
So thanks all
- A

 

[Noodlebug]

I like videos about people popping black heads though In the face. I know I'm weird.

Me too!!!