Why is my mind hesitating?!

[bellaisdonewithlife]

It's weird that I knew what items I wanted to buy today to attempt with charcoal CO, I have all the tabs open for the items online at the store I was gonna go to in order to get all of them, but I hesitated.

Is this that damn survival instinct or like what is this fear from. I think I can't do it without a partner. I can always grab them tomorrow if I think this through. I'm off to smoke some hookah. Haven't had it in several years.

 

[saintleftbygod]

natural instint to not avoid danger and avoid death

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

natural instint to not avoid danger and avoid death

Ugh. What the heck am I doing on this freaking rock in the middle of outer space. I don't understand how someone can have lifelong pleasure circuit issues from childhood and end up being stuck just going through the motions their whole life. I hope I find a partner soon.

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

def survival instinct. there are some substances you can take to bypass that completely